YoYo!
it seem like ... a lots of spider web here haha!
it's like decades ago since my last post. Partly its because I'm lazy ( i rather go facebook,insta or twitter)
but the main reason is because of I'M BUSY!! That's so true actually.
STPM's life isn't easy i tell you but since the exam ended and rather than sleeping till 2pm everyday. i should continue my blog right? or shouldn't me?
I don't know i should continue or not after so many years.
its hard to capture my feelings. my mood fluctuate quite frequent. i can be happy now and i can be crying the next seconds. i don't really wanna spam my blog with all the negative things but sometimes i cant really control and i just hate myself. like a lot.
perhaps i will continue but mostly may be all those negative emo things. dafuq. haha!
i always trying to cheer myself and i succeed every time, so how am i to blog since i forget those feeling so damn fast??
i really hope i can record all my feelings and event at here but i'm just so lazy T T
my life seem meaningless somehow. i cant even manage my own blog. so sucks.
anyway i'm going to Melaka nexk week! or next next week!!
maybe i can wrote a bit about that trip and hope i can continue to blog about my life :)
gtg! (addicted to Line's I LOVE COFFEE game) buai~
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Showing posts with label IceEmo. Show all posts
17 November 2013
19 May 2013
The Beginning Of Nightmare
tomorrow will be the 1st day of exam for my STPM semester 2!!
too many mixed feeling hence i think i should spill all out or i'm afraid i'll die T^T
this sem isnt that easy and a lot of people say STPM easy only, won't die and can score. DAMN YOU! if it's easy then why you go for college. ARGH
STPM made me learn a lot, relationship, social, time management ( still SUCKS ) and also many.
i also understand that in this modern world, everyone somehow got their evil side. even me. ya i know, like sometimes i wont willing to share my knowledge as i scare they will be more clever than me but then i remember someone said that we should share our knowledge as this will make us more wise and mature in thinking. so ever since that, i try to share what i know to all my friends and try not to keep any secret or info from them.
even though i did that but i realise no one will treat you the same back. they somehow just ignore me or sometimes tell me wrong information.
then i realise, no matter how good is somehow, they may also be a devil to achieve what they want including sacrifice me :)
fine, i understand. this year i got a new quote.
>< actually its nothing different now. i cant find someone to talk to now haih. can only keep to myself and motivate me myself. tough :(
okay!! need to be strong. there is still a long path for me to walk. i'll overcome all the obstacle !!
Be alone can help you understand yourself more and be independence ;)
PEGGIE FIGHTING!!
SEM 2 !!!!!! I'LL DEFEAT YOU!
tmr will be Account 1st T^T
GOD BLESS ME PLS!
4 more days to freedom (temporary freedom TT)
too many mixed feeling hence i think i should spill all out or i'm afraid i'll die T^T
this sem isnt that easy and a lot of people say STPM easy only, won't die and can score. DAMN YOU! if it's easy then why you go for college. ARGH
STPM made me learn a lot, relationship, social, time management ( still SUCKS ) and also many.
i also understand that in this modern world, everyone somehow got their evil side. even me. ya i know, like sometimes i wont willing to share my knowledge as i scare they will be more clever than me but then i remember someone said that we should share our knowledge as this will make us more wise and mature in thinking. so ever since that, i try to share what i know to all my friends and try not to keep any secret or info from them.
even though i did that but i realise no one will treat you the same back. they somehow just ignore me or sometimes tell me wrong information.
then i realise, no matter how good is somehow, they may also be a devil to achieve what they want including sacrifice me :)
fine, i understand. this year i got a new quote.
everything happen for a reason. its okay to fall and sometimes it help you to grow upin the same times im afraid too, as if i think everyone will have their devil side, i'll start to be alone and at last i'll have no one beside me and really forever alone T^T
>< actually its nothing different now. i cant find someone to talk to now haih. can only keep to myself and motivate me myself. tough :(
okay!! need to be strong. there is still a long path for me to walk. i'll overcome all the obstacle !!
Be alone can help you understand yourself more and be independence ;)
PEGGIE FIGHTING!!
SEM 2 !!!!!! I'LL DEFEAT YOU!
tmr will be Account 1st T^T
GOD BLESS ME PLS!
4 more days to freedom (temporary freedom TT)
28 March 2013
I'm HAPPY or NOT?
I know life never been easy. Its hard and many things can happen. in ONE DAY
well, compared to those others at Africa or poverty country I'm happy and safe but I'm still human right? I'm selfish and I have my own Problems and feeling too.
this is the holiday week ( i thought ) but to say it properly its more to stress or homework week. or crying week. I've been living on these worst day starting from saturday. I thought that after all the stupid project i can at least REST! Go for a movie or maybe outing awhile. but no...
It's already Thursday and what i do is facing the books! not FACEBOOK but real textbook. and homework and project.
Worst of all, i realise i dont have A friend to talk to when I'm crying or when I'm upset. It's not that i didn't tried but they interrupt and said their problems first then they forget about me. It's okay since i used to it already. I really hope that i got a best friend that can share things with me. Just that no one really bother to listen to me. Not even a friend.
i use to have some friends. mostly males, i don't know why but tend to listen to me. but ever since they knew a pretty girl. i get brush aside. I'm not jealous but can't i have at least one? I know some have boyfriend or girlfriend , so i dont dare to bother them but....
nevermind. i understand.
I'm not pretty enough right?
People often say outward isnt important and inner beauty will stay with you for forever. thats the most important one. I thought it is. but it isn't.
No matter you judge outward or inward, for sure you will approach to someone OUTWARD forst right. if it doesn't pleased you, i bet you dont have the mood to talk to them too. i face these situation a lot. and now i cant but keep on looking down at myself.
i'm not pretty, dont have a good body figure, not smart, not attractive and maybe i dont even have a inner beauty. thats why people go gor a better one right?
This week is totally a disaster ! what i planned is totally messed up. Everything doesnt turn up nicely. and i find myself crying because of overstress. having stress is nothing but when you dont have anyone beside you to say " hey! don't be like that. you still have me right? I'll be by your side ! cheer! "
it's always me that cheer someone but when the situation happened inversely, i can only say " hey dont be upset. alone is okay"
yea, alone is okay. but i need someone also. like a friend?
i always say that my friends have their own friends. thats why. i hate it.
well, compared to those others at Africa or poverty country I'm happy and safe but I'm still human right? I'm selfish and I have my own Problems and feeling too.
this is the holiday week ( i thought ) but to say it properly its more to stress or homework week. or crying week. I've been living on these worst day starting from saturday. I thought that after all the stupid project i can at least REST! Go for a movie or maybe outing awhile. but no...
It's already Thursday and what i do is facing the books! not FACEBOOK but real textbook. and homework and project.
Worst of all, i realise i dont have A friend to talk to when I'm crying or when I'm upset. It's not that i didn't tried but they interrupt and said their problems first then they forget about me. It's okay since i used to it already. I really hope that i got a best friend that can share things with me. Just that no one really bother to listen to me. Not even a friend.
i use to have some friends. mostly males, i don't know why but tend to listen to me. but ever since they knew a pretty girl. i get brush aside. I'm not jealous but can't i have at least one? I know some have boyfriend or girlfriend , so i dont dare to bother them but....
nevermind. i understand.
I'm not pretty enough right?
People often say outward isnt important and inner beauty will stay with you for forever. thats the most important one. I thought it is. but it isn't.
No matter you judge outward or inward, for sure you will approach to someone OUTWARD forst right. if it doesn't pleased you, i bet you dont have the mood to talk to them too. i face these situation a lot. and now i cant but keep on looking down at myself.
i'm not pretty, dont have a good body figure, not smart, not attractive and maybe i dont even have a inner beauty. thats why people go gor a better one right?
This week is totally a disaster ! what i planned is totally messed up. Everything doesnt turn up nicely. and i find myself crying because of overstress. having stress is nothing but when you dont have anyone beside you to say " hey! don't be like that. you still have me right? I'll be by your side ! cheer! "
it's always me that cheer someone but when the situation happened inversely, i can only say " hey dont be upset. alone is okay"
yea, alone is okay. but i need someone also. like a friend?
i always say that my friends have their own friends. thats why. i hate it.
20 December 2012
世界末日？The End Of The World?
最近全部人都热烈的讨论世界末日的话题
今天是 20 December 2012 了,
明天就是 世界末日 咯
很多人都会问朋友，家人或自己，
也许有些会玩玩下的回答，可是如果明天真的是世界末日的话，
你又会做什么，说些什么呢？
我也很认真地问过我自己，
我当然不想明天就是世界末日，
可是如果是的话，
很想跟家人 说说话 吃最后的一餐
然后，也很想 谈恋爱 :) ♥
很想知道那种感觉 ，真真地 恋爱
接吻，牵手，有人关心，有人疼，有人陪
真的很想跟他一起 看戏 吃饭 聊天 听歌 还有很多的
虽然这些，朋友都能做得到 可是，
我的朋友 是 做不到！
当我真的很难受，很孤单，很痛的时候，
真的一个朋友都不在我身边，我说了我不开心 不想一个人 很想出去
说了问了 不懂及多次了，可是他们却没理会
也许 我是不重要把? or i'm always invisible.. :)
我以为习惯就可以了 反正都 8 或 9 年了，
我改习惯下一个人的生活，
可是我不能 我很怕一个人的生活
所以常常听歌，让我觉得 不孤单 :)
但这帮不到什么。
所以我很想 在世界末日还没来的时候 ，
很认真地 去爱一个人，去谈恋爱 :)
i dont want to die so fast haha!
i havent Kiss before , havent get married, havent have my own career family and babies.
那你们呢？
有真真地去想过吗？
p/s : seriously la, impossible got so little things only lo!
i hope to go travel too! Japan! Paris! or anywhere ! TAIWAN too :)
and i'm curious about my STPM result /.\ LOL
i also wanna meet JAY in person! get his signature and TAKE PHOTO WITH HIM!!!!!! ♥
there is just too many things i havent try before and i hope i can do all this before i mati XD
should sleep now! Bye!
BTW, 杰伦 的新歌 超好听的 ♥ ！MELTING! ♥
I go dream now better /.\ since all these quite impossible :(
Bye!
今天是 20 December 2012 了,
明天就是 世界末日 咯
很多人都会问朋友，家人或自己，
“如果明天真的是世界末日，你会做些什么吗？”
也许有些会玩玩下的回答，可是如果明天真的是世界末日的话，
你又会做什么，说些什么呢？
我也很认真地问过我自己，
我当然不想明天就是世界末日，
可是如果是的话，
很想跟家人 说说话 吃最后的一餐
然后，也很想 谈恋爱 :) ♥
很想知道那种感觉 ，真真地 恋爱
接吻，牵手，有人关心，有人疼，有人陪
真的很想跟他一起 看戏 吃饭 聊天 听歌 还有很多的
虽然这些，朋友都能做得到 可是，
我的朋友 是 做不到！
当我真的很难受，很孤单，很痛的时候，
真的一个朋友都不在我身边，我说了我不开心 不想一个人 很想出去
说了问了 不懂及多次了，可是他们却没理会
也许 我是不重要把? or i'm always invisible.. :)
我以为习惯就可以了 反正都 8 或 9 年了，
我改习惯下一个人的生活，
可是我不能 我很怕一个人的生活
所以常常听歌，让我觉得 不孤单 :)
但这帮不到什么。
所以我很想 在世界末日还没来的时候 ，
很认真地 去爱一个人，去谈恋爱 :)
i dont want to die so fast haha!
i havent Kiss before , havent get married, havent have my own career family and babies.
那你们呢？
有真真地去想过吗？
p/s : seriously la, impossible got so little things only lo!
i hope to go travel too! Japan! Paris! or anywhere ! TAIWAN too :)
and i'm curious about my STPM result /.\ LOL
i also wanna meet JAY in person! get his signature and TAKE PHOTO WITH HIM!!!!!! ♥
there is just too many things i havent try before and i hope i can do all this before i mati XD
should sleep now! Bye!
BTW, 杰伦 的新歌 超好听的 ♥ ！MELTING! ♥
I go dream now better /.\ since all these quite impossible :(
Bye!
12 October 2012
十月。悲伤
不知不觉就考完 TRIAL 了，
STPM 很快的来着了
今天 很懒惰的没去学校
睡了一整天 也想了一整天
说好了今天要读书的 可是真的没心情
整天的心情都一样 一直想哭 真的很想哭 但哭不出
这个月里 才过了 12 天 ，我却伤心了 12 天
为读书而烦，为朋友而烦，为家里而烦 还有 为他而哭
那天 Sue Ern 跟我说 她明白了 心碎 心痛 还有 没有了心 的 滋味
我其实很明白 因为 我体验不少
尤其是今年 对着他 我不懂他在想什么 也不知道他怎样想
有时候 他会一直看着我 偷偷得跟着我
我不懂是真还是假 可是 很多朋友 都这么觉得
我怎么可能没留意到呢？我知道阿 可是我不敢想
我怕 希望越大，失望越大
可是朋友都一直说 是真的 而且很明显
她们每说一次，我就敢敢得想一次
然后去找他聊天 问他问题 还有去留意他 STALK 他
可是每次 都失望
他明明是 online 的 可是他没回我，
他明明是 看到了 我的信息 可是他没回我，
然后 就跟自己说 “他不回就算，别找他 也别理他了”
可是过了 5分钟，还是死死的去找他
真的很笨，没用！
其实我知道的，他是不可能喜欢我啊
是我想太多 真的很多了
也许他留意的人 是其他人 是我身边的人吧
绝对不是我
真的很够了，不想继续这样
答应了自己，不会再伤害自己
可是没办法做到 真的很失望
其实我要求的不多，
只想有人疼
有人关心
知道我说 “没事” 的时候 就是我很难过的时候
回来哄我
就够了
我没有说过要一个很帅的 或 有特别的条件的人
只要是疼我的就好啊
每当我看见身边的朋友 有男友关心 有男友弄她开心 时，
我真的真的 很 羡慕
可是他.......
除了每天让我哭一次，就没了
只能说 我不够美 不够完美 不够好
他看不上我
听了 这首歌 就哭了。。 ：]
舒服多了 。
是时候 读书了
用这一个假期 忘记他
STPM 很快的来着了
今天 很懒惰的没去学校
睡了一整天 也想了一整天
说好了今天要读书的 可是真的没心情
整天的心情都一样 一直想哭 真的很想哭 但哭不出
这个月里 才过了 12 天 ，我却伤心了 12 天
为读书而烦，为朋友而烦，为家里而烦 还有 为他而哭
那天 Sue Ern 跟我说 她明白了 心碎 心痛 还有 没有了心 的 滋味
我其实很明白 因为 我体验不少
尤其是今年 对着他 我不懂他在想什么 也不知道他怎样想
有时候 他会一直看着我 偷偷得跟着我
我不懂是真还是假 可是 很多朋友 都这么觉得
我怎么可能没留意到呢？我知道阿 可是我不敢想
我怕 希望越大，失望越大
可是朋友都一直说 是真的 而且很明显
她们每说一次，我就敢敢得想一次
然后去找他聊天 问他问题 还有去留意他 STALK 他
可是每次 都失望
他明明是 online 的 可是他没回我，
他明明是 看到了 我的信息 可是他没回我，
然后 就跟自己说 “他不回就算，别找他 也别理他了”
可是过了 5分钟，还是死死的去找他
真的很笨，没用！
其实我知道的，他是不可能喜欢我啊
是我想太多 真的很多了
也许他留意的人 是其他人 是我身边的人吧
绝对不是我
真的很够了，不想继续这样
答应了自己，不会再伤害自己
可是没办法做到 真的很失望
其实我要求的不多，
只想有人疼
有人关心
知道我说 “没事” 的时候 就是我很难过的时候
回来哄我
就够了
我没有说过要一个很帅的 或 有特别的条件的人
只要是疼我的就好啊
每当我看见身边的朋友 有男友关心 有男友弄她开心 时，
我真的真的 很 羡慕
可是他.......
除了每天让我哭一次，就没了
只能说 我不够美 不够完美 不够好
他看不上我
。
。
。
。
我对自己承诺过，
伤心 就要哭出来
哭完 就睡个好觉
醒了 就会没事咯！
我其实很简单而已，
你对我好 我就会对你更好，
你对我不好 我会双倍的还给你。
喜欢就喜欢 讨厌就讨厌 ，
开心就笑 伤心就哭
听了 这首歌 就哭了。。 ：]
舒服多了 。
是时候 读书了
用这一个假期 忘记他
逞强 萧亚轩
如果听实话只会更伤
宁愿将你的谎话当作善良
反正结局是这样
晓得细节又怎样
想好聚好散完美伪装
可是被你的拥抱击溃眼眶
不愿成全不想原谅
但自尊太好强
最怕旧情人像怜悯的眼光
爱的太逞强
无论多眷恋也不祈求不勉强
不爱我的我不想讲得洒脱却感伤
总是爱的太逞强
怎么你竟让我不能忘不能放痛还想
戴上了墨镜隔绝目光
然后戴上了耳机紧贴悲伤
到人群里去流浪
也不一个人在家
越苦的情歌越要敢唱
回忆最满的地方坐一晚上
不要埋藏才能释放
虽然痛会很长
爱不会留下太容易疗的伤
爱的太逞强
无论多眷恋也不祈求不勉强
不爱我的我不想讲得洒脱却感伤
总是爱的太逞强
怎么你竟让我不能忘不能放痛还想
爱的太逞强
无论多眷恋也不祈求不勉强
不爱我的我不想讲得洒脱却感伤
总是爱的太逞强
怎么你竟让我不能忘不能放痛还想
23 September 2012
I'm TRYING
GOD!! Blogspot changed to a new look! ( change long time already but i'm still using the old design )
it forced me to change! Damn == not really use to it lo.....can give me back the old one?? TT
i don't have the mood to blog already but i NEED to ~.~
this isn't the actual post for what happened this week or maybe month haha ~ because, I'm really tired today. /.\
having extra class and also tuition. somemore played too late last night! ( will update yesterday event soon! woots )
slept at 1am last night and woke up at 6 then straight go tuition till 7 !
I'm really exhausted. i enjoy my day but I'm really tired. FML
seriously, i felt weird when I'm posting this because this few weeks i learned a lot and understand a lot. all in a sudden, I'm afraid to post things as it is public and everyone could see it but i don't really know where to share out my feelings. yes, i do have friends and also family but friends don't really help much because they don't really understand me and even if they understand they won't know how to help me [ no worry! will be fine soon ] as for family, just forget it. i won't even tell them my problems, not that they cant help me but they just will scold me and end up adding my problems. i maybe sound too worst, but this is the truth, each time i told out my problem, the same things happen. they scold and I'm so fed up. for example, i wanna tell my mom a secret and i HOPE she'll share my feeling but no! this will only end up as a family topic and not a secret anymore. I'm upset when people discussing my privacy.
these few nights, i keep on wanna cry but i didn't and i try to be patient ( teenager got too much things to think and they cried even its a small things haha )
things don't work out as how it ought to be. some times it get worse or some times there isn't any solution. when I'm tired and i cant rest then i stressed .
exam coming really soon and i should really study....
after tomorrow updates, I'll go and study~ i SWEAR! please be hardworking Peggie! /.\
sorry for emo ah.... continue scroll to seek happiness haha~!
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Very tired! sleep 1st lo.... babai!
BELL !! faster update ur blog ah, tomorrow i want seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee hehe. Good night ^^
it forced me to change! Damn == not really use to it lo.....can give me back the old one?? TT
i don't have the mood to blog already but i NEED to ~.~
this isn't the actual post for what happened this week or maybe month haha ~ because, I'm really tired today. /.\
having extra class and also tuition. somemore played too late last night! ( will update yesterday event soon! woots )
slept at 1am last night and woke up at 6 then straight go tuition till 7 !
I'm really exhausted. i enjoy my day but I'm really tired. FML
seriously, i felt weird when I'm posting this because this few weeks i learned a lot and understand a lot. all in a sudden, I'm afraid to post things as it is public and everyone could see it but i don't really know where to share out my feelings. yes, i do have friends and also family but friends don't really help much because they don't really understand me and even if they understand they won't know how to help me [ no worry! will be fine soon ] as for family, just forget it. i won't even tell them my problems, not that they cant help me but they just will scold me and end up adding my problems. i maybe sound too worst, but this is the truth, each time i told out my problem, the same things happen. they scold and I'm so fed up. for example, i wanna tell my mom a secret and i HOPE she'll share my feeling but no! this will only end up as a family topic and not a secret anymore. I'm upset when people discussing my privacy.
these few nights, i keep on wanna cry but i didn't and i try to be patient ( teenager got too much things to think and they cried even its a small things haha )
things don't work out as how it ought to be. some times it get worse or some times there isn't any solution. when I'm tired and i cant rest then i stressed .
exam coming really soon and i should really study....
after tomorrow updates, I'll go and study~ i SWEAR! please be hardworking Peggie! /.\
sorry for emo ah.... continue scroll to seek happiness haha~!
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Simple summary updates
so there will be 2 or 3 updates for tomorrow , hope i can finish update la
1. The Process of Organising Bell & Sue Ern Surprise Party
2. Normal Life Updates
3. Darlings Surprise Party !!
1 and 3 may combine XD
Show you all a bit bout yesterday photos!
organising Team! XP
Whole Group ！！ Group Photo! Cheer !
Handmade photo frame! ( it's simple material only! but the end product quite nice! )
Chocolate Flower Bouquet for Bell & Sue Ern ! FROM Wan Jing ! so sweet ^^
will update more by Tomorrow! STAY TUNE to look for more yarh!!
its 12.30am now and its 23 September !! its one of my darling birthday!
H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y ! !
Good Luck For Tomorrow and Cheer babeh! I Love You!!
Hope You enjoy Your Birthday and be Happy always! ^ ^
Very tired! sleep 1st lo.... babai!
BELL !! faster update ur blog ah, tomorrow i want seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee hehe. Good night ^^
P/S : i really wanna forget HIM but sooner and sooner, i just can't stop myself from putting more and more feeling towards him. Fall for him MORE already how??? TT keep jealous only when i saw him close with other girl! AHHHH! :X Miss you ! >.<
21 August 2012
some times I felt so fed up.
so helpless and i always find my self crying when i can't find a solution.
is this the real me? so weak and useless?
i have no idea how many tears i have wasted in my 18 years life.
i cried almost all the time. when i get scold or just because of a tiny things i can cry like hell.
i once told my self, one day there will be a guy that i can rely on and he will stop all my tears cheer me up too.
but now i change to another version.
" each time i'm crying. i will comfort my self and make my self happy because there is no one that you can trust and rely on. no matter how good is that person they will make you cry to, even a single tears"
not really wanna be so emo tonight. i thought it would be a great night.
he isn't working today and i thought we can talk whole day long. i awaits today. but he did not reply my message for the whole day and end up like this. crying again.
why ah? each time i wanna let go my stupid bad behaviour and be good to you , then you all come and play with it. when i finally can let go my bottom line and do things that i hate and you all come and mess it up!
FINE! i don't wanna be like this. why do i need to be good to others when others don't know how to appreciate it? i'll get back to my original behaviour! don't come to me and said i change!
i hate to live like this.
so helpless and i always find my self crying when i can't find a solution.
is this the real me? so weak and useless?
i have no idea how many tears i have wasted in my 18 years life.
i cried almost all the time. when i get scold or just because of a tiny things i can cry like hell.
i once told my self, one day there will be a guy that i can rely on and he will stop all my tears cheer me up too.
but now i change to another version.
" each time i'm crying. i will comfort my self and make my self happy because there is no one that you can trust and rely on. no matter how good is that person they will make you cry to, even a single tears"
not really wanna be so emo tonight. i thought it would be a great night.
he isn't working today and i thought we can talk whole day long. i awaits today. but he did not reply my message for the whole day and end up like this. crying again.
why ah? each time i wanna let go my stupid bad behaviour and be good to you , then you all come and play with it. when i finally can let go my bottom line and do things that i hate and you all come and mess it up!
FINE! i don't wanna be like this. why do i need to be good to others when others don't know how to appreciate it? i'll get back to my original behaviour! don't come to me and said i change!
i hate to live like this.
05 August 2012
心理。的一些话
this post will be a very rojak post because mixed with mandarin & english.
for your information : please remember that i come from a Sekolah Kebangsaan [ sk ] which mean i did not learn Chinese ever since i born ( actually i got learn before at kindergarten but i remember 1 2 3 only ~.~ ) so don't complain about how sucks my mandarin is in this particular post :p
and i learn how to speak & read Chinese during Form 3, thanks to my friends bell ~ ( yala yala, you very geng but don't zilian at there~! faster press [love it] LAU XIAO LIN :p )
so please 体谅 me. hope don't have too much mistake ><
and this is MY Chinese LEVEL. Actually i'm kinda proud la....
from don't know how to read & see chinese character until now. can write a whole post in CHINESE! TT so 感动 ！SUPPORT SUPPORT ah :p
enjoy my emo post ba! xP
for your information : please remember that i come from a Sekolah Kebangsaan [ sk ] which mean i did not learn Chinese ever since i born ( actually i got learn before at kindergarten but i remember 1 2 3 only ~.~ ) so don't complain about how sucks my mandarin is in this particular post :p
and i learn how to speak & read Chinese during Form 3, thanks to my friends bell ~ ( yala yala, you very geng but don't zilian at there~! faster press [love it] LAU XIAO LIN :p )
so please 体谅 me. hope don't have too much mistake ><
and this is MY Chinese LEVEL. Actually i'm kinda proud la....
from don't know how to read & see chinese character until now. can write a whole post in CHINESE! TT so 感动 ！SUPPORT SUPPORT ah :p
enjoy my emo post ba! xP
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我很花心也很专一，为什么我会这样说呢？
其实我也不懂。
我这个人很奇怪，在感情里很混乱
今天能爱你爱到要生要死，明天却能忘了你是谁。
不是说三心两意，
只不过 感觉来了就真的来了，怎样挡也挡不住
可是感觉没了，也真的没了，留也留不住
在我很小的时候，我已经开始发白日梦
不停的想 跟未来的那个人会怎样会做些什么。
可是越大就会发现，梦跟真实的世界是不一样的。
爱情也不是跟想像中的容易。
不是说 喜欢就能，
不是说 想要就能得到
不是说 相爱就能在一起
不是说 付出了就会有回报
不是说 在一起了就能到永远
我没有想过 分了 就真的分了。
也没得回头。我以前以为遇见了对的人，就能永远一起，不会分开
可是 我忘了 两个不一样的人 走在一起 会有问题，失败解决问题 就只好分手
我看见很多人，
明明是相爱 却不能在一起
明明不登对 却能白头到老
明明还爱着 却要放手离开
明明不爱了 却要勉强一起
明明没希望 却不舍得放手
每个人对爱情有不同的看法，
有些觉得 信任 是最重要
又有些觉得 相爱 就可以
而我觉得 两个人一起 最重要的是开心
有了对方 会感到 开心幸福
没了对方 会觉得 少了些东西
只有遇见对的人 一起是开心的 那就可以了
以前 朋友 常会问 "在你们心目中，最想要怎样的对象?"
小的时候 会想要 帅的，疼我的，高的，利害读书，能常常陪我 & many more
可是现在大了 想要的却是 两个字 《感觉》
我觉得 想要的 不一定会得到那样的，
不想要的 更加有可能会得到
不可能说他不是你想要的 那就要分手啊
所以 感觉 大完！
你永远都不懂 未来的那个会是怎样
可是 感觉来了，一切都不重要
因为真的爱了
也许 感觉不是一切 也不现实。但 享受那时候的快乐和幸福 不就很完美了吗？
不要期待得太多，顺其自然
惊喜 永远都好过 失望 :]
有时，看见朋友有了另一半 这么幸福开心
我也会突然很想要一个 来疼我 弄我开心
可是我知道这一切 都勉强不来 ( 勉强没幸福 )
只好耐心的等待
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19 July 2012
Another Interesting Pre-U Week!
Olah! Here to blog again haha! this week is a very interesting week XD
because of my very 38 friends, pre u life very fun & i love M GROUP! :D
my MUET teacher suddenly want us to research about someone that we admire.
so, without any thinking, i wrote and research bout my dear JAY CHOU! haha
a bit paiseh because i need to present it infront of my friends :X and xiao lin's bf keep on tease me bout this == stupid TONY! hmp :[
need to pass up my pp file. and i forget to bring it TT haih
nevermind! my file very pretty after i decorated it wahahaha XD
my class and in 3 minutes everyone gone so fast-- lol
so kosong....left me so hardworking at here take picture! haha
they wanna hantar file but teacher balik already & they need to bring back the file wahaha! i win XP
that day suppose wanna go eat Korean BBQ geh....4 of us so excited and awaits it for 1 week already but when we when there!!!!!! it wrote CLOSE! DAMN
operation hours : 10.00 to 3.00 and 5.30 to 10.00 ==
when we arrive, its 3.01 pm
we blame sue ern for giving us fake hope T__T when we go eat again jek?
so we wait for Xiao Lin's cutie come and we tumpang his car go search for FOOD! [ he wanna angry already cause we made him tam tam jun wahaha ]
decided to go to Win Soon Cafe then , main food really taste nice but small snack fail 99
can u imagine how small is this and HOW DAMN EXPENSIVE IS THIS? even smaller than your fingers! [ mostly photo at Tony there aiya ]
RM 7.80 For 6 SMALL FINGERS!! Very beh song haha
picture and reality always the opposite things ....
p/s : every time go eat or chit chat with xiao lin's bf, we all always stomach pain. LAUGH till die hahahaha!
the next day we went for badminton buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut! there's a international championship wor :[ so changed plan to BASKETBALL! & Chatime.
so shuang play basketball with my group but now whole body very pain....play till too sot jor hahaha
see the moon and star? :p
at night went to Bandar Kinara's Pasar Malam :D
yumyum!
What i learned today : world's largest shopping mall :D lazy to type more more! click it & see it! somehow, i'm a little proud of MALAYSIA :D
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okay long time no emo jor....can i emo awhile? :[ hahaha
few days ago, chat with my 38 friends & talk bout bloging.
i went to look at my old blog and realise how childish i am last time. Every single post also about love, emo, crying and so on.... i am still the same but i don't really wanna wrote about those things at here anymore, i don't want people to see me as a child and treat me as one.
the reason i open this new blog also because of my old blog. there's too much painful & childish experience. even most of my memories is there too but its time for a new beginning.
i will still be emo most of the time but i will learn how to cheer myself up and don't become a childish person again.
last times, i always wanna know how it is to fall in love and how is it to have someone to love you care for you and cheer you up. i keep on search for someone and end up getting hurt again & again.
till now, i already don't have those feeling anymore. i felt like tired and Single doesn't seem to be a problem at all.right? or maybe i realise finding someone that will truly love me as how i am is just very hard, i'm not giving up actually. i'm just waiting for someone to pop up and prove to me that they will treat me well. i want a long distance relationship. its worth to wait i know!
for the first time ever, i felt so empty. Almost forget how it is to be sweet & happy with someone you love.
i can only feel it when i saw xiao lin & tony ! damn jealous....... very happy to see them so happy & xing fu! == dont keep on sai meng ah i tell you!
be tough and be strong. only yourself can support yourself :]
buai! Single very shuang :D
because of my very 38 friends, pre u life very fun & i love M GROUP! :D
my MUET teacher suddenly want us to research about someone that we admire.
a bit paiseh because i need to present it infront of my friends :X and xiao lin's bf keep on tease me bout this == stupid TONY! hmp :[
nevermind! my file very pretty after i decorated it wahahaha XD
that day suppose wanna go eat Korean BBQ geh....4 of us so excited and awaits it for 1 week already but when we when there!!!!!! it wrote CLOSE! DAMN
operation hours : 10.00 to 3.00 and 5.30 to 10.00 ==
when we arrive, its 3.01 pm
we blame sue ern for giving us fake hope T__T when we go eat again jek?
so we wait for Xiao Lin's cutie come and we tumpang his car go search for FOOD! [ he wanna angry already cause we made him tam tam jun wahaha ]
decided to go to Win Soon Cafe then , main food really taste nice but small snack fail 99
p/s : every time go eat or chit chat with xiao lin's bf, we all always stomach pain. LAUGH till die hahahaha!
the next day we went for badminton buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut! there's a international championship wor :[ so changed plan to BASKETBALL! & Chatime.
so shuang play basketball with my group but now whole body very pain....play till too sot jor hahaha
What i learned today : world's largest shopping mall :D lazy to type more more! click it & see it! somehow, i'm a little proud of MALAYSIA :D
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okay long time no emo jor....can i emo awhile? :[ hahaha
few days ago, chat with my 38 friends & talk bout bloging.
i went to look at my old blog and realise how childish i am last time. Every single post also about love, emo, crying and so on.... i am still the same but i don't really wanna wrote about those things at here anymore, i don't want people to see me as a child and treat me as one.
the reason i open this new blog also because of my old blog. there's too much painful & childish experience. even most of my memories is there too but its time for a new beginning.
i will still be emo most of the time but i will learn how to cheer myself up and don't become a childish person again.
last times, i always wanna know how it is to fall in love and how is it to have someone to love you care for you and cheer you up. i keep on search for someone and end up getting hurt again & again.
till now, i already don't have those feeling anymore. i felt like tired and Single doesn't seem to be a problem at all.right? or maybe i realise finding someone that will truly love me as how i am is just very hard, i'm not giving up actually. i'm just waiting for someone to pop up and prove to me that they will treat me well. i want a long distance relationship. its worth to wait i know!
for the first time ever, i felt so empty. Almost forget how it is to be sweet & happy with someone you love.
i can only feel it when i saw xiao lin & tony ! damn jealous....... very happy to see them so happy & xing fu! == dont keep on sai meng ah i tell you!
buai! Single very shuang :D
25 June 2012
How to pull myself out leh?
i start falling for him because you guy keep on mentioning him....
and when i really start to fall deeper to him, you guys say he isn't that good.
he LOOK not serious and not a good one.
i don't know but i guess you guys right bout it. like relationship never been a success things to me , so i choose to listen to you guys?
but do you know, once i put my very own feeling into it, it isnt that easy to pull all of it out.
maybe time will help me but as you know time moving so slow. so i need more time to forget all this. craps! i hope he wont treat me good more or others wont give me any hope. :[
haha! i guess i will let go this very fast.
this often happens to me but over & over, i still let myself to be like that.
i guess i cannot touch love. its like a flame for me, once i touch i hurt.
不是爱不起，只是伤不起 :]
nowadays very emo -- don't know why.
just let it happen as how it be bah! :]
kay.thanks.bye !
and when i really start to fall deeper to him, you guys say he isn't that good.
he LOOK not serious and not a good one.
i don't know but i guess you guys right bout it. like relationship never been a success things to me , so i choose to listen to you guys?
maybe time will help me but as you know time moving so slow. so i need more time to forget all this. craps! i hope he wont treat me good more or others wont give me any hope. :[
haha! i guess i will let go this very fast.
i guess i cannot touch love. its like a flame for me, once i touch i hurt.
不是爱不起，只是伤不起 :]
nowadays very emo -- don't know why.
just let it happen as how it be bah! :]
kay.thanks.bye !
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what i learned today : do you know what is aurora? aurora is some kind of lights that can be seen at north pole or somewhere >< and its so pretty! comes in many colour :x
nice leh? i wish to see it to haha! but no such chances. can see it through cartoon only. like Brother Bear lol XD ( to know more you can google search it! )
off now lo! k.thx.bai
24 June 2012
MONDAY COMING !!!!!
argh! tomorrow Monday again! i still remember when xiao lin say " finally its FRIDAY! we can rest"
why now so damn fast turn to Monday again?!! wtf
actually i wanna go school tomorrow so much!!! but after yesterday, he told me one bad news, i don't wanna go already :[
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recently, i'm falling in love with someone! don't tell him! SHHHHH~!
haha... actually i didn't thought that I'll like him!
i went to borrow something with him & then my friend start teasing me with him. so *poof* he visit my mind every single day! and i start to notice that he's cute & he's my type. [ still didn't thought that he'll be someone i like ! ] then my friends keep on repeat his name again and again! then i finally realise that i fallen for him. they way he smile to me is too attractive. cannot resist it! and I'm so damn shy now when i look at him. >.<
its been a long time since i like someone . i mean, fall for someone so seriously. i don't know if one day I'll forget him and be with someone else or we'll both get to be together, happily ever after lol . haih! when i like someone, eventually I'll think of marriage & my unborn babies lol
like having romantic dates or how we spend time together! haha *shy*
when i be with someone, i wanna plan my future with him, i wanna spend my whole life with him.
i don't know if he is THE ONE, or will he like me or do we get the chance to be together. but right now -.- he keep on appear on my mind. i damn miss him!
so many days cant see him, feel dying!! >.< how ar?
okay lah, boring with my emo feeling already! lets change topic!!!!
- went to library today and saw someone == damn dislike him coz he smoke haih
- then my mom force me to go home TT i wanna study leh,
- eat my asam laksa and then stick at my laptop writing these lol haha
and took beautiful pictures and edit it gao gao hahahah!!! i edit the colours only. * addicted*
say hello to gucci! i know her name sound so expensive haha but he's very intelligent i tell you! he bark so loud when there's a thieves went into my aunt house ! thanks to dear gucci they are safe! lol
i just wave my hand a little and here she come standing beside me! awww !
yes, she's not as cute as those other dogs that all of you seen before but she is very adorable to me! love her lotsssss ! :D
why now so damn fast turn to Monday again?!! wtf
actually i wanna go school tomorrow so much!!! but after yesterday, he told me one bad news, i don't wanna go already :[
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recently, i'm falling in love with someone! don't tell him! SHHHHH~!
haha... actually i didn't thought that I'll like him!
i went to borrow something with him & then my friend start teasing me with him. so *poof* he visit my mind every single day! and i start to notice that he's cute & he's my type. [ still didn't thought that he'll be someone i like ! ] then my friends keep on repeat his name again and again! then i finally realise that i fallen for him. they way he smile to me is too attractive. cannot resist it! and I'm so damn shy now when i look at him. >.<
its been a long time since i like someone . i mean, fall for someone so seriously. i don't know if one day I'll forget him and be with someone else or we'll both get to be together, happily ever after lol . haih! when i like someone, eventually I'll think of marriage & my unborn babies lol
like having romantic dates or how we spend time together! haha *shy*
when i be with someone, i wanna plan my future with him, i wanna spend my whole life with him.
i don't know if he is THE ONE, or will he like me or do we get the chance to be together. but right now -.- he keep on appear on my mind. i damn miss him!
so many days cant see him, feel dying!! >.< how ar?
okay lah, boring with my emo feeling already! lets change topic!!!!
- went to library today and saw someone == damn dislike him coz he smoke haih
- then my mom force me to go home TT i wanna study leh,
- eat my asam laksa and then stick at my laptop writing these lol haha
haha! I'm so pretty :X
yes, she's not as cute as those other dogs that all of you seen before but she is very adorable to me! love her lotsssss ! :D
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things i learned today : do you know eating papaya & pineapple can help for digestion?! if you're in constipation [ sembelit / 便秘 ] eat these two fruits can help to recover you digestive system! papaya can make your skin fairer too! :D
damn boring la! any blog intro? i wanna read blog leh!
lazy study == wtf
p/s : I Miss Him so MUCH AH!!!! :[ dreaming of one day you'll confess to me telling me that you like me too :O haih day dreaming again! haha >.<
p/s 2 : today xiao lin show me a picture of her bf & her at somewhere taking nice picture!!!! like the background is sunset and they are black! holding hands ! so damn sweet! i want too!!!! :[
fine ! i go dream now ! with him! ! haha
babai :P
20 June 2012
Stress Stress Streess & Stressssssssssss!!!!!!!!!
i have sooooooo many things to blog about but i DONT HAVE THAT TIME!!
suppose to be sleeping now cause very tired! but i sacrifice my nap time to write a simple post!
as you know i'm currently studying Form 6 which mean Pre-University. ( sound more yeng haha )
the only word i can use to describe form 6 is STRESS!
Yes! they changed to modular system this year, which mean i got 3 semester or 3 chances to get good grades BUT it is still hard okay!!!
IMAGINE! its the world top 5 or top 3 hardest exam!! TT i wish to pass only!
i only start school LESS than a month and i feel dying now. and my brain keep on stuck at the half! where the brain juice la? !
i'm so damn stress now & i can wake up in the middle in the night and scream!!
i even cry !! TT relax peggie relax!
suppose to be sleeping now cause very tired! but i sacrifice my nap time to write a simple post!
as you know i'm currently studying Form 6 which mean Pre-University. ( sound more yeng haha )
the only word i can use to describe form 6 is STRESS!
Yes! they changed to modular system this year, which mean i got 3 semester or 3 chances to get good grades BUT it is still hard okay!!!
IMAGINE! its the world top 5 or top 3 hardest exam!! TT i wish to pass only!
i only start school LESS than a month and i feel dying now. and my brain keep on stuck at the half! where the brain juice la? !
i'm so damn stress now & i can wake up in the middle in the night and scream!!
i even cry !! TT relax peggie relax!
my dear timetable..... so many damn tutorial ish==
notes & notes & notes
my writing not bad huh? cheh cheh !
then teacher FORCE me to squeeze my brain juice to complete this mind map. not colourful because i done this in library with no "equipment" so haix.....this come out.
but i love my pp teacher. thanks teacher! i will try my best.....
i'm very satisfy with my work! not because its beautiful! because it is neat and i WILL read it haha!!
my bro rush me to dinner now! so babai!
will update soon if i have time lah!
i'm so damn stress lah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gah Yao PEGGIE!!
FORM 6 NOT HARD! right? >.<
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16 June 2012
Relationship
GOD! I wanna write this post looooooooooooooooong long time ago.
and i know i need to write this before my homework and notes get increased. ( I'm not done with them yet!! TT )
okay! the tittle : Long Distance Relationship. Cheh cheh XP
actually its about me. the relationship i always wanted.
since I'm small, i mean when i know whats love is about. i always dream of getting a long distance relationship. i want my 1st boyfriend become my husband then my child's father and be together forever after. BUT my parents & friends keep telling me that I'm dreaming. because this kind of relationship don't exist. ( it do exist but not at this era anymore. :[ )
i know but i still don't believe, till i found a guy that i thought is the 'one' then he hurt me and break with me. THE END. My dreams end just like this. i didn't cry much but I'm so disappointed with my self. not longer, i become worst, i try to fall in love with every single guy i meet and flirt with them. Yes! i did that and i get hurt a lot too. cause I'm putting REAL feelings to them and all they do is just playing and hurting me. i thought they were serious but they wasn't. so i told my self not to believe any guy i meet anymore. i don't want any broken promise and stupid promised like i love you forever.
i seriously don't understand myself. each time i get hurt, i told myself not to let anyone hurt myself again but then i go and flirt and hurt myself again. i guess this is a curse. it's like a cycle. happen again and again.
i trust horoscope a lot. and it said i will meet a lot of guy this year but no relationship will begin or last long. SHIT. this is so true. lots of guy i meet this year and they confess to me ,ask me to trust them as they wont hurt me as how previous people did to me. i don't trust them but they stay beside me and treat me really good. but till the day i thought i could accept them and trust them, they said its not real. its just a lie! a lie again! just a game !!!!!
why can this things happen?
its not the end of this curse yet. there is a guy i meet last year. he's smaller than me a year. the 1st day i meet him, he say he like me and he wont give up me.
i know its not real. haha. so i ignore him. besides i don't like guy that smaller than me, they're childish and immature. but he really didn't give up me. he always there to cheer me up when i'm upset. every single time i cried, he is there for me. i don't know why but this really happen. so i asked my self, is it okay to be with someone that is smaller than me? i don't know but i feel happy each time he talk to me. he is like cheerful and happy all day long. and i want someone like that too. i guess its okay about the height and age. besides, no one perfect right?
each time he said i love you, i like you or etc. my heart beat fast and i really fell for it. we start to chat more and more. every time i upset, i'll find him and he'll solve my problems. he seem all fine. then he often ask me bout being his gf or etc things. I'm happy and felt worry too. we know each other about a year and a half ++ already.
so one day, middle of the night, we chat again. he ask me the same things again. i wanna say YES but end up saying " stop playing! don't lied to me anymore! such games is not fun & playing people feelings is not good at all! " , weird right? but i hopes he said that he isn't playing. he really wanna be with me etc things. but you know what i get for reply? i really couldn't believe my eye for what i saw. he said sorry. yes he said sorry and this mean he isn't serious at all. HE IS SORRY FOR PLAYING ME! i cried. i cried a lot. how can he play me for so long? and how can I'm so stupid get to play with so long? i still find him the next day, hoping all this isn't real but he never treat me the same anymore. he reply me as a friend. and very cold.
now I same school with him. i get to see him sometimes. this few day i saw him after school everyday. but all i do is pretend nothing. and i pretend i didn't see him. it really hurt. this time i really cant expect that someone can use their own feeling to cheat someone. NEVER MIND! its over now. i already get over it! i'm cheer up again!! hahaha :D
to all the jerk that lied me :
One Day! i will found someone that really do love me and treasure me a lot. be with me forever and ever.
he like me as who i am. love my inner beauty not the outward. treat me good. and marry me then.
i will find someone to tease me but love me always. play stupid games with me. watch cartoon with me and sing Jay Chou's song to me. he wont look at other girls because he have me already. he will buy me things i like and spend his day with me. we will celebrate our birthday and Christmas together. he'll take care me when I'm sick and he'll see me in my worst and say I'm beautiful. we will hug together and watch movies. when i cried he will cheer me and when I'm happy he will share my happiness. we will learn and grow old together. went vacation together. he will cook me food and treat me the best. we will have good memories together. and one day he will be my guy and together happily ever after. like those fairy tales!!!
its still a long way to go before we meet each other. we will still dating the wrong person before we meet each other. then one day he will see this post with me. that time i will be smiling seeing this post. not like now crying when i writing this. shit. lol
don't worry babe, we will meet soon. the day i meet you i will know that you're the one i wanna find!!!!!!!
before that i can only wait and enjoy my single life :]
this is a very emo post. haih. damn emo now!!!! hahaha cham. mental problem tim :[
off now and back to my homework life. buai!!
and i know i need to write this before my homework and notes get increased. ( I'm not done with them yet!! TT )
okay! the tittle : Long Distance Relationship. Cheh cheh XP
actually its about me. the relationship i always wanted.
since I'm small, i mean when i know whats love is about. i always dream of getting a long distance relationship. i want my 1st boyfriend become my husband then my child's father and be together forever after. BUT my parents & friends keep telling me that I'm dreaming. because this kind of relationship don't exist. ( it do exist but not at this era anymore. :[ )
i know but i still don't believe, till i found a guy that i thought is the 'one' then he hurt me and break with me. THE END. My dreams end just like this. i didn't cry much but I'm so disappointed with my self. not longer, i become worst, i try to fall in love with every single guy i meet and flirt with them. Yes! i did that and i get hurt a lot too. cause I'm putting REAL feelings to them and all they do is just playing and hurting me. i thought they were serious but they wasn't. so i told my self not to believe any guy i meet anymore. i don't want any broken promise and stupid promised like i love you forever.
i seriously don't understand myself. each time i get hurt, i told myself not to let anyone hurt myself again but then i go and flirt and hurt myself again. i guess this is a curse. it's like a cycle. happen again and again.
i trust horoscope a lot. and it said i will meet a lot of guy this year but no relationship will begin or last long. SHIT. this is so true. lots of guy i meet this year and they confess to me ,ask me to trust them as they wont hurt me as how previous people did to me. i don't trust them but they stay beside me and treat me really good. but till the day i thought i could accept them and trust them, they said its not real. its just a lie! a lie again! just a game !!!!!
why can this things happen?
its not the end of this curse yet. there is a guy i meet last year. he's smaller than me a year. the 1st day i meet him, he say he like me and he wont give up me.
i know its not real. haha. so i ignore him. besides i don't like guy that smaller than me, they're childish and immature. but he really didn't give up me. he always there to cheer me up when i'm upset. every single time i cried, he is there for me. i don't know why but this really happen. so i asked my self, is it okay to be with someone that is smaller than me? i don't know but i feel happy each time he talk to me. he is like cheerful and happy all day long. and i want someone like that too. i guess its okay about the height and age. besides, no one perfect right?
so one day, middle of the night, we chat again. he ask me the same things again. i wanna say YES but end up saying " stop playing! don't lied to me anymore! such games is not fun & playing people feelings is not good at all! " , weird right? but i hopes he said that he isn't playing. he really wanna be with me etc things. but you know what i get for reply? i really couldn't believe my eye for what i saw. he said sorry. yes he said sorry and this mean he isn't serious at all. HE IS SORRY FOR PLAYING ME! i cried. i cried a lot. how can he play me for so long? and how can I'm so stupid get to play with so long? i still find him the next day, hoping all this isn't real but he never treat me the same anymore. he reply me as a friend. and very cold.
now I same school with him. i get to see him sometimes. this few day i saw him after school everyday. but all i do is pretend nothing. and i pretend i didn't see him. it really hurt. this time i really cant expect that someone can use their own feeling to cheat someone. NEVER MIND! its over now. i already get over it! i'm cheer up again!! hahaha :D
to all the jerk that lied me :
One Day! i will found someone that really do love me and treasure me a lot. be with me forever and ever.
he like me as who i am. love my inner beauty not the outward. treat me good. and marry me then.
i will find someone to tease me but love me always. play stupid games with me. watch cartoon with me and sing Jay Chou's song to me. he wont look at other girls because he have me already. he will buy me things i like and spend his day with me. we will celebrate our birthday and Christmas together. he'll take care me when I'm sick and he'll see me in my worst and say I'm beautiful. we will hug together and watch movies. when i cried he will cheer me and when I'm happy he will share my happiness. we will learn and grow old together. went vacation together. he will cook me food and treat me the best. we will have good memories together. and one day he will be my guy and together happily ever after. like those fairy tales!!!
its still a long way to go before we meet each other. we will still dating the wrong person before we meet each other. then one day he will see this post with me. that time i will be smiling seeing this post. not like now crying when i writing this. shit. lol
don't worry babe, we will meet soon. the day i meet you i will know that you're the one i wanna find!!!!!!!
before that i can only wait and enjoy my single life :]
off now and back to my homework life. buai!!
03 May 2012
Letting Go
today already 3rd of may d, one more month i'm going to start my form 6 life
i don't know how it will be or what will happen but wish me best of lucks yarh!
2012 almost comes to half and i seem wasting half year time of mine lor
[ even i got work for the 1st 2 months haha! ]
so for the following months i cannot afford to lose it anymore!
gonna do my best in form 6 life and enjoy my life :D
after changed to a new blog, my reader decrease a lots!! TT
so upset but this is good too. i can write everything i want without thinking how others think XD
just enjoy myself! ^^
ok lets write bout my feelings today,
or more to him, lets call him Mr cute haha
he really cute actually, i like him too but he seem like to bully me [ even i enjoy that >< ] and kinda ignoring me. he wont find me actually , only me will so perasan go find him.
i don't wanna be like this ad,so i give my self a week time!
if one week pass and he still wont give me one single message, i give up him TT
let him go and don't think bout him anymore!!!
such a hard decision, he's quite cute one and i love talking to him
but no choice i'm not his cup of tea ><
so one week time than i gonna say bye bye to him !! [ oi u faster come sms me la TT ]
post one of my zilian picture also ahahaha!
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good night and stay tune :D
i don't know how it will be or what will happen but wish me best of lucks yarh!
2012 almost comes to half and i seem wasting half year time of mine lor
[ even i got work for the 1st 2 months haha! ]
so for the following months i cannot afford to lose it anymore!
gonna do my best in form 6 life and enjoy my life :D
after changed to a new blog, my reader decrease a lots!! TT
so upset but this is good too. i can write everything i want without thinking how others think XD
just enjoy myself! ^^
ok lets write bout my feelings today,
or more to him, lets call him Mr cute haha
he really cute actually, i like him too but he seem like to bully me [ even i enjoy that >< ] and kinda ignoring me. he wont find me actually , only me will so perasan go find him.
i don't wanna be like this ad,so i give my self a week time!
if one week pass and he still wont give me one single message, i give up him TT
let him go and don't think bout him anymore!!!
such a hard decision, he's quite cute one and i love talking to him
but no choice i'm not his cup of tea ><
so one week time than i gonna say bye bye to him !! [ oi u faster come sms me la TT ]
post one of my zilian picture also ahahaha!
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good night and stay tune :D
27 April 2012
Beh Tahan ah !!rr
a story of me and a hyprocrite guy! very awesome story!
blog this cause feel so interesting :pp
enjoy haha!!
when u see this [ bubble talk ] , its what i feel bout the sentences XD]
XXX : ><..
Peggie Py : I dont like guys so speechless de
XXX : i'm not speechless. is just i dont want to say much things
XXX : you dont need to say like to me right?
XXX : you are the one who speak rudely.
too.
XXX : Then,do you have to say im bad?
XXX : you keep bringing the past problems,thats wat makes you like that.. so,i would say,is better to find him back,and dont spoil it to others. do u get wat i mean?
XXX : Peggie. All I Can Say Is. Start A New Life. And,Please Dont Think Too Much.. Im just realy scared.. sometimes,i just want to cry.. because of all this had Threaten me.. if you realy understand wat i mean.. My heart truely Inspire You. the world is just under a curse. i dont get day light..Im not angry.. is i am scared..[ damn la, is u cursing me idiot!! im having new life here and u ka ka cau cau here ==]
Peggie Py : And i'm curious how you know my attitude didn't change? Haha. You not like knowing me long d, I guess you wont want wasting time on me anymore after I said so many "rude" word. Good luck to you well educated ppl! [he said he is well educated and get to study in higher education but this is how he treat ppl?]
XXX : are you saying me that i wont love u anymore?
After you said I dont show you my FUCK UP ATTITUDE !! Well, i'm rude, and I wanna show you now. If you know it is MY ATTITUDE. Then dont care when the FUCK I wanna show it. Shit ! It's the 1st time I said FUCK to someone. You should be glad ^^ still want a girl like me? I'm so DAMN RUDE. And i'm such a bad girl. Stay away since you're so well educated dont wanna polluted you with my attitude [this is so yeng !! :D but this is the 1st time i being so rude TT *cry* ]
XXX : Thank you,
Peggie Py : Bye bye ^^
And i'll delete you, since you'll do that too
XXX : remember ur words.
blog this cause feel so interesting :pp
enjoy haha!!
when u see this [ bubble talk ] , its what i feel bout the sentences XD]
XXX : ><..
Peggie Py : I dont like guys so speechless de
XXX : i'm not speechless. is just i dont want to say much things
- it i say more,it gets more cimplicated
- complicated*
XXX : you dont need to say like to me right?
- like that*
- then never mind la. if you want to show your fuck up attitude.
- dont like then dont like la
- i'm just sick and tired [ like i care == ]
XXX : you are the one who speak rudely.
just look at yourself.u dont even know what islove [ har? really ka?]
too.
XXX : Then,do you have to say im bad?
whats is all this.you always think the past. thats ur problem..- you realy know im scared..
XXX : you keep bringing the past problems,thats wat makes you like that.. so,i would say,is better to find him back,and dont spoil it to others. do u get wat i mean?
- Your not giving urself a freedom mind. You just like to think the past
- You think too much. Your main problem.
- Think Of Yourself before saying to other people. Because Your Attitude And Mind Never Change. Is Just Like,Your Ex BF is controlling you. Just Look. [ macam yes == u not me also lah. ]
XXX : Peggie. All I Can Say Is. Start A New Life. And,Please Dont Think Too Much.. Im just realy scared.. sometimes,i just want to cry.. because of all this had Threaten me.. if you realy understand wat i mean.. My heart truely Inspire You. the world is just under a curse. i dont get day light..Im not angry.. is i am scared..[ damn la, is u cursing me idiot!! im having new life here and u ka ka cau cau here ==]
Peggie Py : And i'm curious how you know my attitude didn't change? Haha. You not like knowing me long d, I guess you wont want wasting time on me anymore after I said so many "rude" word. Good luck to you well educated ppl! [he said he is well educated and get to study in higher education but this is how he treat ppl?]
XXX : are you saying me that i wont love u anymore?
- you dont know me.
- you dont understand me. i never said that iwont find you anymore.
- are you gonna just leave me? not considering anymore? [ damn hypocrite right? just now scold me now say love me == ]
After you said I dont show you my FUCK UP ATTITUDE !! Well, i'm rude, and I wanna show you now. If you know it is MY ATTITUDE. Then dont care when the FUCK I wanna show it. Shit ! It's the 1st time I said FUCK to someone. You should be glad ^^ still want a girl like me? I'm so DAMN RUDE. And i'm such a bad girl. Stay away since you're so well educated dont wanna polluted you with my attitude [this is so yeng !! :D but this is the 1st time i being so rude TT *cry* ]
XXX : Thank you,
Peggie Py : Bye bye ^^
And i'll delete you, since you'll do that too
XXX : remember ur words.
- u r the one who deletes me. [ who cares? i don't wanna see you again lo ]
so this is what happen just now at my facebook inbox, this guy is very hypocrite, very very unlucky meeting him. i thought he very romantic punyer. and what he say before is so touching de leh! but now hor, see him also wanna vomit ==1st time scold people like this, quite syok also but i feel so bad, as i dislike use bad work scold people..... i'm so sorry god! please forgive me TT
so i end here!! byeeeeeeee~~
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