I'm HAPPY or NOT?

I know life never been easy. Its hard and many things can happen. in ONE DAY
well, compared to those others at Africa or poverty country I'm happy and safe but I'm still human right? I'm selfish and I have my own Problems and feeling too.

this is the holiday week ( i thought ) but to say it properly its more to stress or homework week. or crying week. I've been living on these worst day starting from saturday. I thought that after all the stupid project i can at least REST! Go for a movie or maybe outing awhile. but no...
It's already Thursday and what i do is facing the books! not FACEBOOK but real textbook. and homework and project.

     Worst of all, i realise i dont have A friend to talk to when I'm crying or when I'm upset. It's not that i didn't tried but they interrupt and said their problems first then they forget about me. It's okay since i used to it already. I really hope that i got a best friend that can share things with me. Just that no one really bother to listen to me. Not even a friend.

i use to have some friends. mostly males, i don't know why but tend to listen to me. but ever since they knew a pretty girl. i get brush aside. I'm not jealous but can't i have at least one? I know some have boyfriend or girlfriend , so i dont dare to bother them but....
nevermind. i understand.
I'm not pretty enough right?

People often say outward isnt important and inner beauty will stay with you for forever. thats the most important one. I thought it is. but it isn't.

No matter you judge outward or inward, for sure you will approach to someone OUTWARD forst right. if it doesn't pleased you, i bet you dont have the mood to talk to them too. i face these situation a lot. and now i cant but keep on looking down at myself.
i'm not pretty, dont have a good body figure, not smart, not attractive and maybe i dont even have a inner beauty. thats why people go gor a better one right?

This week is totally a disaster ! what i planned is totally messed up. Everything doesnt turn up nicely. and i find myself crying because of overstress. having stress is nothing but when you dont have anyone beside you to say " hey! don't be like that. you still have me right? I'll be by your side ! cheer! "
it's always me that cheer someone but when the situation happened inversely, i can only say " hey dont be upset. alone is okay"

yea, alone is okay. but i need someone also. like a friend?
i always say that my friends have their own friends. thats why. i hate it.

Life's Obstacle

Just realise that i didn't publish that god damn post !! T^T
i wrote a blogpost few weeks ago just to like giving it an update and clear up some spider web.
and i realise it only saved as draft :(
Sorry bloggie~didn't meant to keep you no update.

its just because i'm too busy. thats the reason i use the most this year.
but its so true. i don't know why, but i have loads of homework to be done and now there's a project undergoing. really make me stress and tired.
been cried so many time because of the stress and homework. soooooo tired.

i dont even have the time to blog. the CNY or others small event or maybe food and normal updates ( relationship too haha )

so i think i shall clear up the spider web tonight! even its 1.45am now. haha so hardworking TT
nothing much to update because i cant update the CNY post now or any new event as there is too much photo need to upload.

lets say somethings about today.
i have MUET today. an english test that consist of 4 element la. done the speaking last month and today i deal with the other 3 reading, writing and listening. most of my fren said its hard and may consider for a resit on July but for me, i think its kinda easy but also hard. ( no idea what it mean, just that it is hard but then not as hard as i thought but also not easy as i thought too ~.~)

i get BAND 4 for both trials last year and last month. i target for the real MUET too and if i failed, i guess i'll go for resit. i don't have that much confidence and i just hope for the best lah. Life, cant even be predicted. so just hope for the best and no need to waste RM 100 to resit again. still, i think there is a high percentage of need to resit :((

this year really need to concentrate at studies or else TT i'll regret for the rest of my life. fuu~
yea thats mean no relationship :(

this is the last year i'm attending school and wear uniform :( i really wanna have a boyfriend this time haha. can study together and can spend much more time together. haih. the last year, wont have much difference i guess :((
at least tell me that someone had a crush on me? :DD or left me a love letter on my table? :DD ( watch too much drama and comic -.- )

okay back to reality, i guess this year need to study hard and no relationship ( wont have also :[ )
if anyone like me tell me la XDD haha ~.~ okay okay im back to the cruel world once again.

need to go and do my assignment already TT LATE NIGHT also need to do haih

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i Get a new camera this year and i like to take picture actually ^^

but not consider as pro. just took some picture that i like. :D

 this is just some stem tha being cut down haha

 using one of the effect ( selection colour )

 this is one of the photo i love the most!!

 yan yan #1

 yan yan #2

 yan yan #3

i like this picture too :D

and this is the last one! very nice and special right?

there it goes! its me! very pretty ahahaa! but too bad only photo look pretty :(

such a waste haha :PP

OMG! its 2.46am!! i need to go rush my assignment lo! good night and good bye