Peggie's World : 2013

17 November 2013

I'm back...or I'm quitting?

YoYo!
it seem like ... a lots of spider web here haha!
it's like decades ago since my last post. Partly its because I'm lazy ( i rather go facebook,insta or twitter)
but the main reason is because of I'M BUSY!! That's so true actually.
STPM's life isn't easy i tell you but since the exam ended and rather than sleeping till 2pm everyday. i should continue my blog right? or shouldn't me?

I don't know i should continue or not after so many years.
its hard to capture my feelings. my mood fluctuate quite frequent. i can be happy now and i can be crying the next seconds. i don't really wanna spam my blog with all the negative things but sometimes i cant really control and i just hate myself. like a lot.

perhaps i will continue but mostly may be all those negative emo things. dafuq. haha!
i always trying to cheer myself and i succeed every time, so how am i to blog since i forget those feeling so damn fast??

i really hope i can record all my feelings and event at here but i'm just so lazy T T
my life seem meaningless somehow. i cant even manage my own blog. so sucks.

anyway i'm going to Melaka nexk week! or next next week!!
maybe i can wrote a bit about that trip and hope i can continue to blog about my life :)

gtg! (addicted to Line's I LOVE COFFEE game) buai~

24 May 2013

HOLIDAY MOOD ; ON

oh yay! Finally after 4 days of struggling with all the notes, paper, books and exam.
IT ENDED PRETTY WELL.

i guess i may get a better result this sem than the previous one but i know i can do even better ;(
just it's kinda too late. WHY DO PEOPLE ONLY REALISE IT AFTER THINGS AND THINGS HAPPENED?

I'm kinda scare that what i did now isn't enough and won't qualified me to any course in uni. sigh
there's nothing more i can do already actually.
Since the exam ended, then i just enjoy my quick holiday for now and put studies aside temporary.
I really need some rest actually. Tired, exhausted and feeling-less lol
dont have the excitement in me when the exam ended ;(
2 weeks of holiday, i guess i'll just sleep eat play and do nothing.

people around me busy with their partner while me......
it's great actually. form 6 really don't allow people to think too much and i confirm i cannot handle a relationship when i'm facing a lot of stress in my studies.
so i just have to wait till i get in to uni haha
since my parents also doesn't agree about this. they said studies first ;(

i also felt that relationship sometimes quite troublesome GOD!
those problems and crying.. i guess i got relationship phobia already haha

i guess falling in love with artist or just imagining is enough to fulfil my wish now haha
or maybe having a crush ^^
more than that, NO haih

opps! late already, gonna sleep! NIGHT!
Happy Holiday and Enjoy It ^~^

tata

23 May 2013

韦礼安版本【知道】歌词 ♥

知道

词曲：韦礼安

他让妳憔悴许多

他让妳失魂落魄

他一举一动妳不停的对我说

我微笑倾听妳說

我却越听越心痛

怎么妳說的不是我

他比我多了什么让妳愿意耐心等候

我想知道他让你倾心是什么

我想知道他让你疯狂为什么

我知道做的和他没有不同

但是我却不在妳心中逗留

我想知道他哪里比我好很多

在妳心中如何和他平起平坐

我知道我比他付出的还多

可是我总换不了妳的回首

妳让我憔悴很多

妳让我失魂落魄

妳一颦一笑我就像是著了魔

他不经意的走过

妳就把我给冷落

嫉妒把我给吞没

他比我多了什么让妳愿意耐心等候

我想知道他让你倾心是什么

我想知道他让你疯狂为什么

我知道做的和他没有不同

但是我却不在妳心中逗留

我想知道他哪里比我好很多

在妳心中如何和他平起平坐

我知道我比他付出的还多

可是我在妳心中没有他多

我知道了他让你倾心是什么

我知道了他让你疯狂为什么

我知道和他永远不会相同

但是我却不要放弃妳的我

我知道了他那里比我好很多

在妳心中我永远不会和他平起平坐

我知道我比他付出的还多

可是我在妳心中没有他多

知道我知道

19 May 2013

The Beginning Of Nightmare

tomorrow will be the 1st day of exam for my STPM semester 2!!
too many mixed feeling hence i think i should spill all out or i'm afraid i'll die T^T

this sem isnt that easy and a lot of people say STPM easy only, won't die and can score. DAMN YOU! if it's easy then why you go for college. ARGH

STPM made me learn a lot, relationship, social, time management ( still SUCKS ) and also many.
i also understand that in this modern world, everyone somehow got their evil side. even me. ya i know, like sometimes i wont willing to share my knowledge as i scare they will be more clever than me but then i remember someone said that we should share our knowledge as this will make us more wise and mature in thinking. so ever since that, i try to share what i know to all my friends and try not to keep any secret or info from them.
even though i did that but i realise no one will treat you the same back. they somehow just ignore me or sometimes tell me wrong information.

then i realise, no matter how good is somehow, they may also be a devil to achieve what they want including sacrifice me :)
fine, i understand. this year i got a new quote.

everything happen for a reason. its okay to fall and sometimes it help you to grow up

in the same times im afraid too, as if i think everyone will have their devil side, i'll start to be alone and at last i'll have no one beside me and really forever alone T^T
>< actually its nothing different now. i cant find someone to talk to now haih. can only keep to myself and motivate me myself. tough :(

okay!! need to be strong. there is still a long path for me to walk. i'll overcome all the obstacle !!

Be alone can help you understand yourself more and be independence ;)
PEGGIE FIGHTING!!
SEM 2 !!!!!! I'LL DEFEAT YOU!

tmr will be Account 1st T^T
GOD BLESS ME PLS!

4 more days to freedom (temporary freedom TT)

28 March 2013

I'm HAPPY or NOT?

I know life never been easy. Its hard and many things can happen. in ONE DAY
well, compared to those others at Africa or poverty country I'm happy and safe but I'm still human right? I'm selfish and I have my own Problems and feeling too.

this is the holiday week ( i thought ) but to say it properly its more to stress or homework week. or crying week. I've been living on these worst day starting from saturday. I thought that after all the stupid project i can at least REST! Go for a movie or maybe outing awhile. but no...
It's already Thursday and what i do is facing the books! not FACEBOOK but real textbook. and homework and project.

Worst of all, i realise i dont have A friend to talk to when I'm crying or when I'm upset. It's not that i didn't tried but they interrupt and said their problems first then they forget about me. It's okay since i used to it already. I really hope that i got a best friend that can share things with me. Just that no one really bother to listen to me. Not even a friend.

i use to have some friends. mostly males, i don't know why but tend to listen to me. but ever since they knew a pretty girl. i get brush aside. I'm not jealous but can't i have at least one? I know some have boyfriend or girlfriend , so i dont dare to bother them but....
nevermind. i understand.
I'm not pretty enough right?

People often say outward isnt important and inner beauty will stay with you for forever. thats the most important one. I thought it is. but it isn't.

No matter you judge outward or inward, for sure you will approach to someone OUTWARD forst right. if it doesn't pleased you, i bet you dont have the mood to talk to them too. i face these situation a lot. and now i cant but keep on looking down at myself.
i'm not pretty, dont have a good body figure, not smart, not attractive and maybe i dont even have a inner beauty. thats why people go gor a better one right?

This week is totally a disaster ! what i planned is totally messed up. Everything doesnt turn up nicely. and i find myself crying because of overstress. having stress is nothing but when you dont have anyone beside you to say " hey! don't be like that. you still have me right? I'll be by your side ! cheer! "
it's always me that cheer someone but when the situation happened inversely, i can only say " hey dont be upset. alone is okay"

yea, alone is okay. but i need someone also. like a friend?
i always say that my friends have their own friends. thats why. i hate it.

10 March 2013

Life's Obstacle

Just realise that i didn't publish that god damn post !! T^T
i wrote a blogpost few weeks ago just to like giving it an update and clear up some spider web.
and i realise it only saved as draft :(
Sorry bloggie~didn't meant to keep you no update.

its just because i'm too busy. thats the reason i use the most this year.
but its so true. i don't know why, but i have loads of homework to be done and now there's a project undergoing. really make me stress and tired.
been cried so many time because of the stress and homework. soooooo tired.

i dont even have the time to blog. the CNY or others small event or maybe food and normal updates ( relationship too haha )

so i think i shall clear up the spider web tonight! even its 1.45am now. haha so hardworking TT
nothing much to update because i cant update the CNY post now or any new event as there is too much photo need to upload.

lets say somethings about today.
i have MUET today. an english test that consist of 4 element la. done the speaking last month and today i deal with the other 3 reading, writing and listening. most of my fren said its hard and may consider for a resit on July but for me, i think its kinda easy but also hard. ( no idea what it mean, just that it is hard but then not as hard as i thought but also not easy as i thought too ~.~)

i get BAND 4 for both trials last year and last month. i target for the real MUET too and if i failed, i guess i'll go for resit. i don't have that much confidence and i just hope for the best lah. Life, cant even be predicted. so just hope for the best and no need to waste RM 100 to resit again. still, i think there is a high percentage of need to resit :((

this year really need to concentrate at studies or else TT i'll regret for the rest of my life. fuu~
yea thats mean no relationship :(

this is the last year i'm attending school and wear uniform :( i really wanna have a boyfriend this time haha. can study together and can spend much more time together. haih. the last year, wont have much difference i guess :((
at least tell me that someone had a crush on me? :DD or left me a love letter on my table? :DD ( watch too much drama and comic -.- )

okay back to reality, i guess this year need to study hard and no relationship ( wont have also :[ )
if anyone like me tell me la XDD haha ~.~ okay okay im back to the cruel world once again.

need to go and do my assignment already TT LATE NIGHT also need to do haih

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i Get a new camera this year and i like to take picture actually ^^

but not consider as pro. just took some picture that i like. :D