Its been quite a time since i last update my blog.
it wasnt me dont want to update but Holiday is really that boring.
no plan. no outing. no FUN.
everyday stuck at home facing my lappy only, what can i write?
no interesting thing happen these few week,
but i guess its the time i should write something
not an event or an outing.
just some personal feelings that i wanna share out at here. my space.
for the first time ever, i felt very empty and i dont know to react.
what do i mean by empty? which mean, no one really in my heart now.
normally, i have crush or guys that i'm interest in but these few weeks,
i felt really EMPTY. i dont have any feelings to anyone.
i'm actually someone that cannot live without love ( kinda over say like this )
not really will die but i chase love non stop, i never stop loving someone.
and after i get rid of someone, the next day i found a new one. i am people like this, you may say i'm flower heart but if i really get into a relationship i'm serious about it.
but recently, i felt really EMPTY.
i guess i can live without love now LOL
or maybe i dont wanna fall in love again. just for now. i wanna concentrate studies and i maybe can find someone better in Uni or College.
so i wanna share out my personal feelings and experience or stories that i know. which is related to LOVE thingy.
so....
i start to understand what is Love since i'm 13 years old. yup, Form 1 but i didn't felt anyone before, which mean i have crush only ( no BF TT ). those were the time i'm so damn PURE.
Pure than anyone in nowadays 13 years old KIDS.
to my surprise, most of them already lost their first love, first kiss or date or maybe Virginity. OMG
== i start to approach Sex during form 3 and really know What it sex during form 5,
i don't know i'm really that pure or kids nowadays learn things fast like that.
and marriage in the years or 15/16 ?!!!!!!!!!
WORLD nowadays? KIDS nowadays?
in western countries, i believe virginity may be nothing for a teen but in asian, i guess virginity is still important ba?????
at least for me it is. maybe my cousin and parents teach me well in these.
i'm still consider as pure now, okay....consider la not really pure ==
because in my opinion, girls should lose their virginity after they get married.
not after they're in a relationship. isn't that right?
my cousin told me that all boys are like that,
they will try their luck and ask for it (sex), if their partner let them then they go for it. if their partner dont want then some boys will respect the girls or some will argue for it. LOL?
this may be one of the reason i don't wanna PakTor now. i don't know how to handle it if my future bf ask for this== i will sure reject but those awkward moment. /.\ YERRRRRRRR X BOLEH TAHAN!!!
i can accept kiss and hug only. hahahaha! so closed minded. but i'm just protecting myself.
no one know what will happen after those things happen right? who will take that Responsibility? not that you will get married with me after i'm pregnant and that means you take that responsibility already! how about future life? get married because of responsibility then after your child grown up, you divorce because you dont love each other any more ?
it doesnt mean that 2 people get married because of love will NOT divorce but isnt marriage are meant for adults? MATURE adults. those that plan for their future. their kids and education and long long more.
not for 2 teenager that get married for responsibility. right??
Sorry, i'm too far from my topic already /.\
tomorrow continue! i'm tired already! should sleep now!! sorry for typo because i just type out based on my feelings~!
Good Night!
P/S ; i changes my blog templates and background already! Like it? :D
Christmas FEEL
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