I'm back...or I'm quitting?

YoYo!
it seem like ... a lots of spider web here haha!
it's like decades ago since my last post. Partly its because I'm lazy ( i rather go facebook,insta or twitter)
but the main reason is because of I'M BUSY!! That's so true actually.
STPM's life isn't easy i tell you but since the exam ended and rather than sleeping till 2pm everyday. i should continue my blog right? or shouldn't me?

I don't know i should continue or not after so many years.
its hard to capture my feelings. my mood fluctuate quite frequent. i can be happy now and i can be crying the next seconds. i don't really wanna spam my blog with all the negative things but sometimes i cant really control and i just hate myself. like a lot.

perhaps i will continue but mostly may be all those negative emo things. dafuq. haha!
i always trying to cheer myself and i succeed every time, so how am i to blog since i forget those feeling so damn fast??

i really hope i can record all my feelings and event at here but i'm just so lazy T T
my life seem meaningless somehow. i cant even manage my own blog. so sucks.

anyway i'm going to Melaka nexk week! or next next week!!
maybe i can wrote a bit about that trip and hope i can continue to blog about my life :)

gtg! (addicted to Line's I LOVE COFFEE game) buai~

HOLIDAY MOOD ; ON

oh yay! Finally after 4 days of struggling with all the notes, paper, books and exam.
IT ENDED PRETTY WELL.

i guess i may get a better result this sem than the previous one but i know i can do even better ;(
just it's kinda too late. WHY DO PEOPLE ONLY REALISE IT AFTER THINGS AND THINGS HAPPENED?

I'm kinda scare that what i did now isn't enough and won't qualified me to any course in uni. sigh
there's nothing more i can do already actually.
Since the exam ended, then i just enjoy my quick holiday for now and put studies aside temporary.
I really need some rest actually. Tired, exhausted and feeling-less lol
dont have the excitement in me when the exam ended ;(
2 weeks of holiday, i guess i'll just sleep eat play and do nothing.

people around me busy with their partner while me......
it's great actually. form 6 really don't allow people to think too much and i confirm i cannot handle a relationship when i'm facing a lot of stress in my studies.
so i just have to wait till i get in to uni haha
since my parents also doesn't agree about this. they said studies first ;(

i also felt that relationship sometimes quite troublesome GOD!
those problems and crying.. i guess i got relationship phobia already haha

i guess falling in love with artist or just imagining is enough to fulfil my wish now haha
or maybe having a crush ^^
more than that, NO haih

opps! late already, gonna sleep! NIGHT!
Happy Holiday and Enjoy It ^~^

tata

Life's Obstacle

Just realise that i didn't publish that god damn post !! T^T
i wrote a blogpost few weeks ago just to like giving it an update and clear up some spider web.
and i realise it only saved as draft :(
Sorry bloggie~didn't meant to keep you no update.

its just because i'm too busy. thats the reason i use the most this year.
but its so true. i don't know why, but i have loads of homework to be done and now there's a project undergoing. really make me stress and tired.
been cried so many time because of the stress and homework. soooooo tired.

i dont even have the time to blog. the CNY or others small event or maybe food and normal updates ( relationship too haha )

so i think i shall clear up the spider web tonight! even its 1.45am now. haha so hardworking TT
nothing much to update because i cant update the CNY post now or any new event as there is too much photo need to upload.

lets say somethings about today.
i have MUET today. an english test that consist of 4 element la. done the speaking last month and today i deal with the other 3 reading, writing and listening. most of my fren said its hard and may consider for a resit on July but for me, i think its kinda easy but also hard. ( no idea what it mean, just that it is hard but then not as hard as i thought but also not easy as i thought too ~.~)

i get BAND 4 for both trials last year and last month. i target for the real MUET too and if i failed, i guess i'll go for resit. i don't have that much confidence and i just hope for the best lah. Life, cant even be predicted. so just hope for the best and no need to waste RM 100 to resit again. still, i think there is a high percentage of need to resit :((

this year really need to concentrate at studies or else TT i'll regret for the rest of my life. fuu~
yea thats mean no relationship :(

this is the last year i'm attending school and wear uniform :( i really wanna have a boyfriend this time haha. can study together and can spend much more time together. haih. the last year, wont have much difference i guess :((
at least tell me that someone had a crush on me? :DD or left me a love letter on my table? :DD ( watch too much drama and comic -.- )

okay back to reality, i guess this year need to study hard and no relationship ( wont have also :[ )
if anyone like me tell me la XDD haha ~.~ okay okay im back to the cruel world once again.

need to go and do my assignment already TT LATE NIGHT also need to do haih

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i Get a new camera this year and i like to take picture actually ^^

but not consider as pro. just took some picture that i like. :D

 this is just some stem tha being cut down haha

 using one of the effect ( selection colour )

 this is one of the photo i love the most!!

 yan yan #1

 yan yan #2

 yan yan #3

i like this picture too :D

and this is the last one! very nice and special right?

there it goes! its me! very pretty ahahaa! but too bad only photo look pretty :(

such a waste haha :PP

OMG! its 2.46am!! i need to go rush my assignment lo! good night and good bye

幸福的定义？

今年的第一个Post就写了这个。tmd sien 哈哈

每个人对于幸福的定义都不一样，

有些 觉得 幸福是能跟自己最爱的人在一起

有些 觉得 幸福是有人疼爱自己关心自己

有些 觉得 幸福是简简单单的过生活

我却。。。

只想看见身边的人开心快乐平安，

我就很幸福了

虽然我也想有人疼有人爱，
可是这些不是只是说说这么容易
爱一个人需要很大的勇气，是一辈子的承诺
所以，看见身边人开心，我就会觉得幸福了

（其实每天能听到杰伦的歌就很开心哈哈哈）

以前的我，不会这么想

我想要人疼我关心我留在我身边

每一样东西都要跟人家比

很渴望要个人守护我，爱我 

所以会乱乱做出很多让自己受伤的东西

不懂是长大了 还是 伤多了

变得会停下来 想一想，再继续走下去

也没有以前这么渴望爱情（哈哈）

不懂是不是太多功课了 ，没有时间去想

走得这么快，我累了

我想走慢点，看清楚先 

虽然还会羡慕朋友（你啦BELL）

可是明白了 这些东西不能勉强

加上今年很重要 

表姐和表姐的朋友 都说今年 别交往先

等到近了大学才交都不迟 现在专心读书 考好STPM

其实功课都多到要死了

真的没时间去想这么多

（所以没时间来写blog！不是因为懒惰哦！BELL才是懒惰哈哈）

难得今天有时间来这里说说下最近的心情

其实很想update有照片的post！可是真的没时间！

新年吧！嘻嘻（好过bell 呵呵）

「我不敢哭        

因为我不想认输」

这首歌一直影响我，也很对

可是，不是对于爱情拉

是不是累了也不能哭？

因为不想认输，不想把自己最弱的一面给人看到

所以只能自己忍受，或根本没有人愿意分担这一切呢？

反正都习惯了，我不怕自己一个走下去

就算再痛也不能放弃！！！

STPM冲啊！！

微笑。加油

今天周杰伦的『十二新作』到了！！

等了一个月！终于来了！

超开心的说！

兴奋 \ ˚▽˚ /

加油加油加油！

新的一年 新的开始 就听 十二新作 

嘻嘻 

（‐＾▽＾‐）

I'm TRYING

GOD!! Blogspot changed to a new look! (  change long time already but i'm still using the old design )
it forced me to change! Damn == not really use to it lo.....can give me back the old one?? TT
i don't have the mood to blog already but i NEED to ~.~

this isn't the actual post for what happened this week or maybe month haha ~ because, I'm really tired today. /.\
having extra class and also tuition. somemore played too late last night! ( will update yesterday event soon! woots )

slept at 1am last night and woke up at 6 then straight go tuition till 7 !
I'm really exhausted. i enjoy my day but I'm really tired. FML
seriously, i felt weird when I'm posting this because this few weeks i learned a lot and understand a lot. all in a sudden, I'm afraid to post things as it is public and everyone could see it but i don't really know where to share out my feelings. yes, i do have friends and also family but friends don't really help much because they don't really understand me and even if they understand they won't know how to help me [ no worry! will be fine soon ] as for family, just forget it. i won't even tell them my problems, not that they cant help me but they just will scold me and end up adding my problems. i maybe sound too worst, but this is the truth, each time i told out my problem, the same things happen. they scold and I'm so fed up. for example, i wanna tell my mom a secret and i HOPE she'll share my feeling but no! this will only end up as a family topic and not a secret anymore. I'm upset when people discussing my privacy.

these few nights, i keep on wanna cry but i didn't and i try to be patient ( teenager got too much things to think and they cried even its a small things haha )
things don't work out as how it ought to be. some times it get worse or some times there isn't any solution. when I'm tired and i cant rest then i stressed .

exam coming really soon and i should really study....
after tomorrow updates, I'll go and study~ i SWEAR! please be hardworking Peggie! /.\

sorry for emo ah.... continue scroll to seek happiness haha~!
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Simple summary updates 

so there will be 2 or 3 updates for tomorrow , hope i can finish update la

1. The Process of Organising Bell & Sue Ern Surprise Party

2. Normal Life Updates

3. Darlings Surprise Party !!

1 and 3 may combine XD

Show you all a bit bout yesterday photos!

 organising Team! XP 

 Whole Group ！！ Group Photo! Cheer !

Handmade photo frame! ( it's simple material only! but the end product quite nice! ) 

 Chocolate Flower Bouquet for Bell & Sue Ern ! FROM Wan Jing ! so sweet ^^

will update more by Tomorrow! STAY TUNE to look for more yarh!!

its 12.30am now and its 23 September !! its one of my darling birthday!

H A P P Y     B I R T H D A Y   !  ! 

Good Luck For Tomorrow and Cheer babeh! I Love You!!

Hope You enjoy Your Birthday and be Happy always! ^ ^

Very tired! sleep 1st lo.... babai!

BELL !! faster update ur blog ah, tomorrow i want seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee hehe. Good night ^^

P/S : i really wanna forget HIM but sooner and sooner, i just can't stop myself from putting more and more feeling towards him. Fall for him MORE already how??? TT keep jealous only when i saw him close with other girl! AHHHH! :X Miss you ! >.< 

Holiday huh?

well well well, this isn't a actual post ~.~
i don't have to mood to blog now but seem long time no update so simply write something ba haha

so holiday isn't that great. today the 5th day of holiday and every single day i told my self the same things. == i wasted another day of holiday lol

but holiday still okay la not as lifeless as i said haha
got go out with friends and have fun also :D ( didn't do homework only :S how to die? @@ )

see how lifeless is me? this is how i look at home ... so aunty ~.~ gosh i look so tired. everyday 2 or 3am only sleep. TT so big geh eyebags! *scream*

will try to update soon :D
Bye for now hehe

any idea for how to get money without working outside? ~.~
i need income! everyday go out. want bankrupt d.

a very short post

my blogging mood suppose to be ON today. really wanna write a lot! and update my event and most important my FEELINGS! but......xiao lin & his bf will look at my blog, so i paiseh update haha!
just kidding xP

its because tomorrow will got another event! so i wanna wait for tomorrow pictures first :p
and my homework haven't done yet !!

Pengajian Am : DYING! i don't know what is this and why sejarah and karangan is related ._.
Pengajian Peniagaan : Still okay but without my reference book, i'm dead! T.T
Ekonomi : i love it at first but then i absent for one day classes, i don't know where am i. trying to catch up back >.<
Prinsip Perakaunan : Always my favourite but this teacher kinda... ehem, i miss my account teacher! TT
MUET : well, i score pretty well in listening and speaking, but writing and reading .......... i'll try my best TT

　　　　

how come these few subjects can be so hard ?!!!
exam coming soon..... don't know how to die already. jia you bah!
ＧＡＭＢＡＴＥＨ :D

P/S : HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALAN CHO CHUN HOW ! xP i don't know got spell wrong your name or not ! but wish you happy birthday and have a blast :D

bloging mood : ON

wanna blog a lot today! due to too many things inside my heart and i wanna release all!
but but but need to do a lot of homework and house work now!!! give me 2 hour then i'll try blog all the event ! :D

stay tune ah.....
buai~

BUSY BUSY BUSY LIFE!!!

i think i'm quite bust this few weeks! i don't even have time to blog at all! :[ so sad......
actually i got time de, but i too lazy to go and open my laptop and blog.
i use my darling time to sleep ==
normally my schedule will be like this

ehem...

7.00 - 1.50 : SCHOOL! Making me go insane
1.50 - 3.00 : Take bus back to puchong utama == waste me lots of time
3.00 - 5.00 : Learn driving or go library ( every thursday go MBA for badminton! mostly la XD )
6.00 - 7.00 : bath & eat
7.00 - 9.00 : do homeworks or watch tv XD
9.00 - 11.00 : get ready to sleep lol!

thats my EVERYDAY Schedule.....except saturday & sunday ofcourse!

actually most of my homework i finish it at school or library de..... so i can save my time to sleep~ wahahhahaha!
or use it to day dreaming --

i enjoy the time i play badminton! recently really addicted to badminton.
1. i wanna be slimmer ! really need exercise ! T.T
2. to RELAX
3. don't wanna think too much :]

i got lots of things to post actually but its 11.20pm now. and i'm so damn sleepy.
+ tomorrow i'm going out with my 38 friends... ( Awaiting..... :D )
so...............................lazy blog wahahhaa

i wondering why my visitor increase so damn fast==
last last week only 125++ people. now 300++ LOL
whatever, not important.

okay about the guy, you know, the one i miss and like geh leh....
i totally give up already :[
reason? he had a Girlfriend! okay, i don't wanna continue put hopes in and try to separate them or whatever. i just don't wanna fall in love with a guy that love his gf a lots. :[ :[ :[
when i know he had a gf, i'm quite sad but its okay. :] wish them lucks. haih.....

Searching for someone that will cheer me up & care for me :]

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kamsahamida! XD

What i learned today :  do you know or seen before a rotating building?

its in Dubai! and the building never look the same every time.

360 degree rotating building! cool huh?

different view every hour! 

( i guess Chinese people wont like it, cause they trust feng shui right? if it keep on rotating, the house degree will be different every time! so luck change every day xDDD )

yeng !

okay! wanna sleep d! babai!! :D 

do people really read my blog? or they just clicked the wrong link? :O

hahhaaha

P/s : i don't understand why i get so nervous when i look into someone eyes. especially boys! every single time! i don't dare at all. TT  and that stupid Douglas keep on look into my eyes== everyday! will get heart attack lol! but he very gay XD VERY GAY! are you gay actually? :P

How to pull myself out leh?

i start falling for him because you guy keep on mentioning him....
and when i really start to fall deeper to him, you guys say he isn't that good.
he LOOK not serious and not a good one.

i don't know but i guess you guys right bout it. like relationship never been a success things to me , so i choose to listen to you guys?

 but do you know, once i put my very own feeling into it, it isnt that easy to pull all of it out.
maybe time will help me but as you know time moving so slow. so i need more time to forget all this. craps! i hope he wont treat me good more or others wont give me any hope. :[
haha! i guess i will let go this very fast.

this often happens to me but over & over, i still let myself to be like that.
i guess i cannot touch love. its like a flame for me, once i touch i hurt.

不是爱不起，只是伤不起 :]

nowadays very emo -- don't know why.

just let it happen as how it be bah! :]

kay.thanks.bye !

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thanks in advance :]

what i learned today : do you know what is aurora? aurora is some kind of lights that can be seen at north pole or somewhere >< and its so pretty! comes in many colour :x

nice leh? i wish to see it to haha! but no such chances. can see it through cartoon only. like Brother Bear lol XD ( to know more you can google search it! )

off now lo! k.thx.bai

MONDAY COMING !!!!!

argh! tomorrow Monday again! i still remember when xiao lin say " finally its FRIDAY! we can rest"
why now so damn fast turn to Monday again?!! wtf

actually i wanna go school tomorrow so much!!! but after yesterday, he told me one bad news, i don't wanna go already  :[
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recently, i'm falling in love with someone! don't tell him! SHHHHH~!
haha... actually i didn't thought that I'll like him!
i went to borrow something with him & then my friend start teasing me with him. so *poof* he visit my mind every single day! and i start to notice that he's cute & he's my type. [ still didn't thought that he'll be someone i like ! ] then my friends keep on repeat his name again and again! then i finally realise that i fallen for him. they way he smile to me is too attractive. cannot resist it! and I'm so damn shy now when i look at him. >.<

its been a long time since i like someone . i mean, fall for someone so seriously. i don't know if one day I'll forget him and be with someone else or we'll both get to be together, happily ever after lol . haih! when i like someone, eventually I'll think of marriage & my unborn babies lol
like having romantic dates or how we spend time together! haha *shy*
when i be with someone, i wanna plan my future with him, i wanna spend my whole life with him.
i don't know if he is THE ONE, or will he like me or do we get the chance to be together. but right now -.- he keep on appear on my mind. i damn miss him!
so many days cant see him, feel dying!! >.< how ar?

okay lah, boring with my emo feeling already! lets change topic!!!!

- went to library today and saw someone == damn dislike him coz he smoke haih
- then my mom force me to go home TT i wanna study leh,
- eat my asam laksa and then stick at my laptop writing these lol haha

 and took beautiful pictures and edit it gao gao hahahah!!! i edit the colours only. * addicted*

 haha! I'm so pretty :X 

 say hello to gucci! i know her name sound so expensive haha but he's very intelligent i tell you! he bark so loud when there's a thieves went into my aunt house ! thanks to dear gucci they are safe! lol

i just wave my hand a little and here she come standing beside me! awww !
yes, she's not as cute as those other dogs that all of you seen before but she is very adorable to me! love her lotsssss ! :D

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thanks in advance :D

things i learned today :  do you know eating papaya & pineapple can help for digestion?! if you're in constipation [ sembelit / 便秘 ] eat these two fruits can help to recover you digestive system! papaya can make your skin fairer too! :D 

damn boring la! any blog intro? i wanna read blog leh! 

lazy study == wtf

p/s : I Miss Him so MUCH AH!!!! :[  dreaming of one day you'll confess to me telling me that you like me too :O haih day dreaming again! haha >.<

p/s 2 : today xiao lin show me a picture of her bf & her at somewhere taking nice picture!!!! like the background is sunset and they are black! holding hands ! so damn sweet! i want too!!!! :[

fine ! i go dream now ! with him! ! haha 

babai :P

Stress & Happy Day

well, my mood kinda confusing today haha!
damn emo at the morning! don't wanna talk at all leh!
but then mood start to change .... change damn fast haha

kinda excited for tomorrow!!!!!!!
going to library after school then go play badminton~~!! yay! :D
i have no idea at all why i'm so happy. [ okay sue ern! you're right! i'm damn happy today :X ]
even i know this mood wont stay long , but i hope i can continue stay positive and be happy!!!!

i like making my self happy!!
what i do is

 like drink my favourite drinks! nestle bliss! DAMN LIKE IT! [ Love Kiwi + Apple Flavour ]

 took photo like a pro photographer !!! love taking natural picture! shall post it when i blog next time ^^

 like drop by to some place & have a cold drinks! i like OCHADO more :p

like took nice picture of me!!! hahaha! damn zilian! this picture don't even look like me but you blow ah? i look pretty here! haha

Start from now on! i should always cheer myself! make my self happy and smile all day long~

Mission of the this year : learn one things every single day! at least one!


what i learned today : know how to drive a bit! & i park car nicely!

Stress Stress Streess & Stressssssssssss!!!!!!!!!

i have sooooooo many things to blog about but i DONT HAVE THAT TIME!!
suppose to be sleeping now cause very tired! but i sacrifice my nap time to write a simple post!
as you know i'm currently studying Form 6 which mean Pre-University. ( sound more yeng haha )
the only word i can use to describe form 6 is STRESS!

Yes! they changed to modular system this year, which mean i got 3 semester or 3 chances to get good grades BUT it is still hard okay!!!
IMAGINE! its the world top 5 or top 3 hardest exam!! TT i wish to pass only!
i only start school LESS than a month and i feel dying now. and my brain keep on stuck at the half! where the brain juice la? !
i'm so damn stress now & i can wake up in the middle in the night and scream!!
i even cry !! TT relax peggie relax!

 my dear timetable..... so many damn tutorial ish==

 notes & notes & notes

 my writing not bad huh? cheh cheh !

 then teacher FORCE me to squeeze my brain juice to complete this mind map. not colourful because i done this in library with no "equipment" so haix.....this come out.

but i love my pp teacher. thanks teacher! i will try my best.....

i'm very satisfy with my work! not because its beautiful! because it is neat and i WILL read it haha!!

my bro rush me to dinner now! so babai!

will update soon if i have time lah!

i'm so damn stress lah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gah Yao PEGGIE!!

FORM 6 NOT HARD! right? >.<

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