I'm back...or I'm quitting?

YoYo!
it seem like ... a lots of spider web here haha!
it's like decades ago since my last post. Partly its because I'm lazy ( i rather go facebook,insta or twitter)
but the main reason is because of I'M BUSY!! That's so true actually.
STPM's life isn't easy i tell you but since the exam ended and rather than sleeping till 2pm everyday. i should continue my blog right? or shouldn't me?

I don't know i should continue or not after so many years.
its hard to capture my feelings. my mood fluctuate quite frequent. i can be happy now and i can be crying the next seconds. i don't really wanna spam my blog with all the negative things but sometimes i cant really control and i just hate myself. like a lot.

perhaps i will continue but mostly may be all those negative emo things. dafuq. haha!
i always trying to cheer myself and i succeed every time, so how am i to blog since i forget those feeling so damn fast??

i really hope i can record all my feelings and event at here but i'm just so lazy T T
my life seem meaningless somehow. i cant even manage my own blog. so sucks.

anyway i'm going to Melaka nexk week! or next next week!!
maybe i can wrote a bit about that trip and hope i can continue to blog about my life :)

gtg! (addicted to Line's I LOVE COFFEE game) buai~

HOLIDAY MOOD ; ON

oh yay! Finally after 4 days of struggling with all the notes, paper, books and exam.
IT ENDED PRETTY WELL.

i guess i may get a better result this sem than the previous one but i know i can do even better ;(
just it's kinda too late. WHY DO PEOPLE ONLY REALISE IT AFTER THINGS AND THINGS HAPPENED?

I'm kinda scare that what i did now isn't enough and won't qualified me to any course in uni. sigh
there's nothing more i can do already actually.
Since the exam ended, then i just enjoy my quick holiday for now and put studies aside temporary.
I really need some rest actually. Tired, exhausted and feeling-less lol
dont have the excitement in me when the exam ended ;(
2 weeks of holiday, i guess i'll just sleep eat play and do nothing.

people around me busy with their partner while me......
it's great actually. form 6 really don't allow people to think too much and i confirm i cannot handle a relationship when i'm facing a lot of stress in my studies.
so i just have to wait till i get in to uni haha
since my parents also doesn't agree about this. they said studies first ;(

i also felt that relationship sometimes quite troublesome GOD!
those problems and crying.. i guess i got relationship phobia already haha

i guess falling in love with artist or just imagining is enough to fulfil my wish now haha
or maybe having a crush ^^
more than that, NO haih

opps! late already, gonna sleep! NIGHT!
Happy Holiday and Enjoy It ^~^

tata

The Beginning Of Nightmare

tomorrow will be the 1st day of exam for my STPM semester 2!!
too many mixed feeling hence i think i should spill all out or i'm afraid i'll die T^T

this sem isnt that easy and a lot of people say STPM easy only, won't die and can score. DAMN YOU! if it's easy then why you go for college. ARGH

STPM made me learn a lot, relationship, social, time management ( still SUCKS ) and also many.
i also understand that in this modern world, everyone somehow got their evil side. even me. ya i know, like sometimes i wont willing to share my knowledge as i scare they will be more clever than me but then i remember someone said that we should share our knowledge as this will make us more wise and mature in thinking. so ever since that, i try to share what i know to all my friends and try not to keep any secret or info from them.
even though i did that but i realise no one will treat you the same back. they somehow just ignore me or sometimes tell me wrong information.

then i realise, no matter how good is somehow, they may also be a devil to achieve what they want including sacrifice me :)
fine, i understand. this year i got a new quote.

everything happen for a reason. its okay to fall and sometimes it help you to grow up

in the same times im afraid too, as if i think everyone will have their devil side, i'll start to be alone and at last i'll have no one beside me and really forever alone T^T
>< actually its nothing different now. i cant find someone to talk to now haih. can only keep to myself and motivate me myself. tough :(

okay!! need to be strong. there is still a long path for me to walk. i'll overcome all the obstacle !!


Be alone can help you understand yourself more and be independence ;)
PEGGIE FIGHTING!!
SEM 2 !!!!!! I'LL DEFEAT YOU!

tmr will be Account 1st T^T
GOD BLESS ME PLS!

4 more days to freedom (temporary freedom TT)

Life's Obstacle

Just realise that i didn't publish that god damn post !! T^T
i wrote a blogpost few weeks ago just to like giving it an update and clear up some spider web.
and i realise it only saved as draft :(
Sorry bloggie~didn't meant to keep you no update.

its just because i'm too busy. thats the reason i use the most this year.
but its so true. i don't know why, but i have loads of homework to be done and now there's a project undergoing. really make me stress and tired.
been cried so many time because of the stress and homework. soooooo tired.

i dont even have the time to blog. the CNY or others small event or maybe food and normal updates ( relationship too haha )

so i think i shall clear up the spider web tonight! even its 1.45am now. haha so hardworking TT
nothing much to update because i cant update the CNY post now or any new event as there is too much photo need to upload.

lets say somethings about today.
i have MUET today. an english test that consist of 4 element la. done the speaking last month and today i deal with the other 3 reading, writing and listening. most of my fren said its hard and may consider for a resit on July but for me, i think its kinda easy but also hard. ( no idea what it mean, just that it is hard but then not as hard as i thought but also not easy as i thought too ~.~)

i get BAND 4 for both trials last year and last month. i target for the real MUET too and if i failed, i guess i'll go for resit. i don't have that much confidence and i just hope for the best lah. Life, cant even be predicted. so just hope for the best and no need to waste RM 100 to resit again. still, i think there is a high percentage of need to resit :((

this year really need to concentrate at studies or else TT i'll regret for the rest of my life. fuu~
yea thats mean no relationship :(

this is the last year i'm attending school and wear uniform :( i really wanna have a boyfriend this time haha. can study together and can spend much more time together. haih. the last year, wont have much difference i guess :((
at least tell me that someone had a crush on me? :DD or left me a love letter on my table? :DD ( watch too much drama and comic -.- )

okay back to reality, i guess this year need to study hard and no relationship ( wont have also :[ )
if anyone like me tell me la XDD haha ~.~ okay okay im back to the cruel world once again.

need to go and do my assignment already TT LATE NIGHT also need to do haih

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i Get a new camera this year and i like to take picture actually ^^

but not consider as pro. just took some picture that i like. :D

 this is just some stem tha being cut down haha

 using one of the effect ( selection colour )

 this is one of the photo i love the most!!

 yan yan #1

 yan yan #2

 yan yan #3

i like this picture too :D

and this is the last one! very nice and special right?

there it goes! its me! very pretty ahahaa! but too bad only photo look pretty :(

such a waste haha :PP

OMG! its 2.46am!! i need to go rush my assignment lo! good night and good bye

幸福的定义？

今年的第一个Post就写了这个。tmd sien 哈哈

每个人对于幸福的定义都不一样，

有些 觉得 幸福是能跟自己最爱的人在一起

有些 觉得 幸福是有人疼爱自己关心自己

有些 觉得 幸福是简简单单的过生活

我却。。。

只想看见身边的人开心快乐平安，

我就很幸福了

虽然我也想有人疼有人爱，
可是这些不是只是说说这么容易
爱一个人需要很大的勇气，是一辈子的承诺
所以，看见身边人开心，我就会觉得幸福了

（其实每天能听到杰伦的歌就很开心哈哈哈）

以前的我，不会这么想

我想要人疼我关心我留在我身边

每一样东西都要跟人家比

很渴望要个人守护我，爱我 

所以会乱乱做出很多让自己受伤的东西

不懂是长大了 还是 伤多了

变得会停下来 想一想，再继续走下去

也没有以前这么渴望爱情（哈哈）

不懂是不是太多功课了 ，没有时间去想

走得这么快，我累了

我想走慢点，看清楚先 

虽然还会羡慕朋友（你啦BELL）

可是明白了 这些东西不能勉强

加上今年很重要 

表姐和表姐的朋友 都说今年 别交往先

等到近了大学才交都不迟 现在专心读书 考好STPM

其实功课都多到要死了

真的没时间去想这么多

（所以没时间来写blog！不是因为懒惰哦！BELL才是懒惰哈哈）

难得今天有时间来这里说说下最近的心情

其实很想update有照片的post！可是真的没时间！

新年吧！嘻嘻（好过bell 呵呵）

「我不敢哭        

因为我不想认输」

这首歌一直影响我，也很对

可是，不是对于爱情拉

是不是累了也不能哭？

因为不想认输，不想把自己最弱的一面给人看到

所以只能自己忍受，或根本没有人愿意分担这一切呢？

反正都习惯了，我不怕自己一个走下去

就算再痛也不能放弃！！！

STPM冲啊！！

微笑。加油

今天周杰伦的『十二新作』到了！！

等了一个月！终于来了！

超开心的说！

兴奋 \ ˚▽˚ /

加油加油加油！

新的一年 新的开始 就听 十二新作 

嘻嘻 

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this may be my last post

STPM coming REAL soon....

and I'm still playing here playing there doing nothing ( got study lah but limited only ) 

(≧ω≦)

so after i count and count.. i left around 1 DAMN MONTH only. SHIT me 99 FML

so i notice that i have no time to play around. should study more and no more SLEEPING zzz /.\

\（‐＾▽＾‐）/

hehe my STPM slip TT 

more stress when i see this haih. WHY I SO LAZY ONE! GOD AH!

hey! my angka giliran is 007 hahaha

so trial is next week ==

and STPM is next month.

i feel dying haih. Tomorrow must go library study already!!! MUST ah!

especially PA .. Tomorrow got PA presentation some more and that pig bell is sleeping now. dont want wake up do with me. aiks

don't know when can update blog again. maybe after trial i guess but i hope i'll use my time to study and not blogging /.\

btw, today my MUET teacher asked us who have work part time before,

eventually all my classmate that HAVE worked before, raise up their hand and proudly said i work how many type of work before, how long, salary how much and how fun etc etc

then our teacher Pn Mary add one more word

 " i want you all to come in front and share with us your experience" 

the most FUNNY scene, everyone put down their hand and said

 " no no no i didn't work before and i don't have experience " 

LOL 99 hahahhahahaha

that include me

but our teacher is a smart teacher, so all that raised up their hand forced to go out, line up and SPEAK OUT. everyone start to shake and keep asking each other, what's my work, how to describe my work? but mostly ask

 " Why i come out? " 

haha LOL

so when it's my turn, i get in and share my experience with shaking voice.

( some good stories that have MORAL VALUE & teacher is pleased ) hoho

most of the boys line at the back and so damn lucky cause teacher said, we don't have much time, you all get in. == they scream for happiness SHIT 

haha

-end story-

FINE BELL! i go study my economy! you better wake up before 8 i tell you!!! 

and print out my slip thank you :p

and 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN BELL !! 

LOVE YOU A LOT DARLING !

done!

offline! 

kthanksbye

btw i changed my header picture! look nicer than before one right? wahaha zilian xP

don't look like me at all 

 (─‿‿─) 

I'm TRYING

GOD!! Blogspot changed to a new look! (  change long time already but i'm still using the old design )
it forced me to change! Damn == not really use to it lo.....can give me back the old one?? TT
i don't have the mood to blog already but i NEED to ~.~

this isn't the actual post for what happened this week or maybe month haha ~ because, I'm really tired today. /.\
having extra class and also tuition. somemore played too late last night! ( will update yesterday event soon! woots )

slept at 1am last night and woke up at 6 then straight go tuition till 7 !
I'm really exhausted. i enjoy my day but I'm really tired. FML
seriously, i felt weird when I'm posting this because this few weeks i learned a lot and understand a lot. all in a sudden, I'm afraid to post things as it is public and everyone could see it but i don't really know where to share out my feelings. yes, i do have friends and also family but friends don't really help much because they don't really understand me and even if they understand they won't know how to help me [ no worry! will be fine soon ] as for family, just forget it. i won't even tell them my problems, not that they cant help me but they just will scold me and end up adding my problems. i maybe sound too worst, but this is the truth, each time i told out my problem, the same things happen. they scold and I'm so fed up. for example, i wanna tell my mom a secret and i HOPE she'll share my feeling but no! this will only end up as a family topic and not a secret anymore. I'm upset when people discussing my privacy.

these few nights, i keep on wanna cry but i didn't and i try to be patient ( teenager got too much things to think and they cried even its a small things haha )
things don't work out as how it ought to be. some times it get worse or some times there isn't any solution. when I'm tired and i cant rest then i stressed .

exam coming really soon and i should really study....
after tomorrow updates, I'll go and study~ i SWEAR! please be hardworking Peggie! /.\

sorry for emo ah.... continue scroll to seek happiness haha~!
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Simple summary updates 

so there will be 2 or 3 updates for tomorrow , hope i can finish update la

1. The Process of Organising Bell & Sue Ern Surprise Party

2. Normal Life Updates

3. Darlings Surprise Party !!

1 and 3 may combine XD

Show you all a bit bout yesterday photos!

 organising Team! XP 

 Whole Group ！！ Group Photo! Cheer !

Handmade photo frame! ( it's simple material only! but the end product quite nice! ) 

 Chocolate Flower Bouquet for Bell & Sue Ern ! FROM Wan Jing ! so sweet ^^

will update more by Tomorrow! STAY TUNE to look for more yarh!!

its 12.30am now and its 23 September !! its one of my darling birthday!

H A P P Y     B I R T H D A Y   !  ! 

Good Luck For Tomorrow and Cheer babeh! I Love You!!

Hope You enjoy Your Birthday and be Happy always! ^ ^

Very tired! sleep 1st lo.... babai!

BELL !! faster update ur blog ah, tomorrow i want seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee hehe. Good night ^^

P/S : i really wanna forget HIM but sooner and sooner, i just can't stop myself from putting more and more feeling towards him. Fall for him MORE already how??? TT keep jealous only when i saw him close with other girl! AHHHH! :X Miss you ! >.< 

A Day Out With Friends at SetiaWalk

went out with friends today after school!! 

sadly today is Saturday and we still need to attend school ! ><

and this WHOLE week i cannot sleep late due to school and tuition haih

so sad man!!

 so since it's Saturday so i decided not to clip up my front hair and end up with a question.

WOW! you cut your hair? =.= LOL 

everyone is like looking at me when i didn't clip up my front hair~!

so different meh??

for me , i think i become more cute and pretty  still look the same la haha

so what do you think? @@

 i heard from the Radio and it intro this Restaurant. Yamagoya Ramen Located to SetiaWalk Ground Floor. and from all over the world it already have 150 outlets and in 1 seconds, 2 bowl of Ramen are Sold!!! 

 

 so we decided to have a try :D

 when we arrive, i'm so shock! its so FULL of people == and we need to sit outside with SMOKER! argh

 Tony & Bell sorry too dark haha

 Me & Sue Ern hehe

 a brighter one. nowadays teen is like this de la..... 

Green Tea Rm 2 ( refillable )

after looking through the MENU, their food is so EXPENSIVE! Average price is RM 19- RM 24 for Ramen while other foods like Fried Rice & Curry Rice or those snack are almost RM 3- RM 30 i guess

 Spicy Tobanjan Ramen RM 22

 Mukashi Special Ramen RM 24

 Black Garlic Ramen RM 22

 MINE! Kimchi Ramen !! RM 22 i LOVE KIMCHII!!!!

 so total up is about RM 27 Per person @@ i almost bankrupt already haih

overall the Food is quite nice but too expensive!!!!! cannot afford it lah

RATING : NICE

 then we went to a Boutique named F Block and This & That. and i saw this bracelet!!!!!!!!!

i love it so much and it only cost RM 20. its quite expensive but the price is normal also compare to others store like Sigma or even Pasar Pagi

 then Sue Ern & bell went to try some clothes while me stuck at there.

because those clothes is for thin & got nice body curve girl geh. i'm too fat so not suit me TT

 3 of us :D

 Tony & Bell :3

 Me & Sue Ern ^^

another picture of us ^^

so going school on Saturday isn't that sad right? haha

LOVE my friends ^^

Enjoy Enjoy hehe

Me acting Cute hehe

wanna go and eat dinner lo!

stay tune for more!

Tomorrow tuition TT 

9am at KL haih sad sad sad

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Babai ~ ♥