Unexpected One

Seriously. its 3.10am right now.
So gonna get to bed now....
I'm actually ready to turn off everything and look at the clock for one last time and went to bed. Then i saw the date.

22 January 2015
It's not actually any specific date lah to be serious. It's just one month later after that night :)
Yea, so one month can happen a lot huh.
There's so much thinking going on this one month.
Funny enough, it's also one week later after i confess. Great coincidence. Hmm.

I know there's nothing meaningful looking back now. Been brain washing my self for the last 24 hours or 48 hours or 64 hour @@ . I understand the condition now and also understand what I want and what should i do but it just took like 2 second for memories to bring all this back. LOL

Didn't intend to confess anything more lah actually, just realize its one month later after that day. Perhaps you dont even remember it.
Why will i remember it, It's because i thought its the BEGINNING of somethings, so i look at the date == so fucking idiot. and it turn out nothing happen .____.
its around 1.30am that time. Been trying to concentrate in watching RM that time but at the end i actually dont. WTF.

After that night, my wrist hurt a lot and it's pain but there's a smile on my face.
I don't understand why you did that and i'm so dying to know that time but now...knowing the answer wont change anything.
What does it mean to you that night?

The pain in my wrist gone after a few days...
this mean my smile too. I somehow hope the pain doesn't fade away, then i will always remember your existence but then it wont happen.

No matter what happen, Your answer already wake me up and i'm now back to reality.

Friends do help me a lot when i'm crying or emoing but only myself understand myself.
It's not like I still have the same feeling towards him, its the memories that hurt. Things that i wished for 20 years finally happen but now it turn out to be NOTHING. Of course it hurt but soon, it wont. I just need time. So no need worry me kay. Just chill and relax! Let the time do its work ;)

Back to normal is the 1st things to do. It's not like I'm pretending nothing happenned but avoiding it just make things worse.
Secondly, stop making memories! Delete what i should and stop making memories that will create pain.
Thirdly, WAIT. yea. nothing much i can do. Just wait for time to pass and things will be over. RIGHT?

There's much more better trees outside right? haha...

Still, I just dont understand why will it be nothing.
Kay la, sleep early bah! Good night :)