Wow. Last blog post was 3 years ago. The year I graduated.

I'm now a working adult for 3 years already. Living in a brand new country, new city, new surrounding and new people. Feeling so different. 3 years ago, am still worrying about working life and crying over guys that doesn't worth it but 3 years later, I'm obsessing over a bunch of guy/uncles (ㅋㅋ)

Not that I don't cry over guys anymore but shifted from crying over heartbroken to....tear-jerking moments with the ahjussi. Crazy and obsessing over a bunch of guys at the age of near 30 (They are near 40. tsk guess I cant comment much on uncle's age). What a brand new experience but I felt happy. I felt really happy. They don't know me but yet I am able to seek happiness thru them and this is really fascinating. 

Last draft blog post I'm still crying over that one guy on 11 November 2017. A day after my birthday. I wonder what happen that day...but 2 days later, found these bunch of guy and step on to the new journey of fan-girling. Reading back what I wrote 3 years ago made me cry again. Not that I still like him but the memories of those days still haunt me. Memories and feeling of those day just flashed back directly and it still hurt so much. 

Funny how almost all my draft blog post started with "If this post managed to be published..."

I wonder if this post managed to be posted or not.... but its been 3 years. I should at least wrote something isn't it? haha. #Workingadult #fangirl #covid19. Summary for this year. Tough year. Holiday and plans got cancelled and my dream holiday vanished. Will I able to fulfill that wish...? Its been 6 ~7 years. After giving up waiting for people to get enough money and leaves, I decided to spend the holiday with myself but covid happen. What a year...Hopefully I will able to set my foot there. If I manage to do so, I will update here once again!! Promise to myself.

Sign off once again.

Hopefully next blog post wont be too long apart from this

나 한국말 연습한다. 진짜 어렵다. 하지만, 재미다요 ㅋㅋ

오늘 끝!! 잘자요!

It'll be alright. I hope.

Maybe...Maybe...maybe...
I really don't deserve happiness.
It's only a month ago that I'm all over the moon but now...I'm back to the earth.

I'm such a complicated person. I don't understand myself.
But at least...I am not regretting of what I've chosen.
Hurt but I manage to walk pass it.
I've given up, Gave him my blessing and walk away.

Maybe 6 months is just a short period. Or maybe I don't even like him before.

For the next 6 months, things will gonna change so much.
I've made a very big decision this time and I hope this will be another decision that I won't regret.
All the best Peggie. Stay strong.

Tiny Happiness

It's the 4th month of 2017~!
How long have I been missing?
Well, today is a good day. Although I don't know how long will this tiny happiness last.
It's kinda weird when I thought I'm all over the moon, I get lighting struck through my heart and fell back to earth. I guess Happiness really don't last long huh?

I guess this is the importance of cherishing that tiny happiness.
It's April fool's day but I hope I can record down some great happiness today!
It's been...almost 6 months. Going through heartbroken, disappointment, and much more feelings, I'm quite surprised I have not given up yet.

As always, I know this won't go anywhere but I'm glad that before I graduate, I'm able to felt so.
That tiny happiness when I see him,
Those mini heart attack when our eyes meet
and those smile I saw from him...is just priceless.
I wanted to share with my dear friends about all these feelings but I somehow afraid of the smiles they gave me whenever I've done something related to him. This is just something I could not bear and who knows if he started to avoid me. It's like another 2~3 months left, I wouldn't want him to cut off contact with me.

I guess current situation is the best relationship we can have...
Hopefully, we both can have great memories together! :D